saudade (d.m)

chapter 2

(Note: I was supposed to add arcade by Duncan Laurence as a video so if you want to listen to it while reading this chapter,go ahead, I'll try to fix it tomorrow) 

update: i fixed it :)
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It all happened so fast, all she could remember was waking up in the middle of the great hall wondering why she was there when it hit her and that awful feeling flooded her body again, he was gone, gone forever.

The war was finally over, harry defeated Voldemort and everyone was safe again, but it didn't matter, he was not by her side anymore, her first and only love was dead. He had broken his promise of coming back but she was not mad at him, how could she? She was mad at herself for not staying nor helping him, maybe if she had stayed he would still be alive and though the dark was soon to be gone, in reality she felt like it had taken her with it.

All that was left were memories, memories of the first time they met, the first fight they had, memories of the detention that changed everything for the both of them.

(flashback)

It was during their third year when because of a stupid accident both teenagers received a detention together from professor Snape.

y/n had accidentally spilled some ink on Draco's robe, they were partners in potions because Snape had sit them together since both of them were on top of his class. And of course Draco being the drama queen that he was had to overreact and shout at her causing a fight to start between the two and although no one was surprised by this event since they were known to be fighting with each other often, this was one of Snape's last straws, he couldn't accept this behavior from them anymore so he took actions upon it and gave them an hour of detention together that same day, he thought that it would help to bring the kids together, which eventually did and even more than anyone would've ever expected.

That afternoon they went into the classroom to have the detention and leave. At first neither of them was speaking but then a weird yet understandable question from Draco took y/n by surprise.

Y/N POV:

"why do you hate me?" he asked out of nowhere, to which I frowned. "I've never done anything bad to you, besides that one time during second year, but hey that was on both of us" he added.

"first of all, I don't hate you Malfoy, I just don't like the way you treat my friends and people in general and secondly how the hell do you expect me not to beat the shit out of you when you called my best friend a FUCKING MUDBLOOD and on top of that, made her cry" I simply responded.

He was a little taken back at first but understood where I was coming from, I mean it's not really nice to see someone make fun of your best friend in front of everyone.

"ok I get it, but I've changed tho, I'm not the same as last year and for the record, they teased me first that day" he said. He was right, I must admit, it was Harry who confronted him first that day and all because he has got a positon as a seeker in the quidditch team.

"ok you're right, but that doesn't change anything Draco" I spat back at him

"we can't keep constantly fighting over stupid things l/n, it will only cause us more problems AND give us more detention together and I think neither of us want that" he said as he let out a sight, letting me know that he was tired of the fights.

"Fine, I'll try to be nicer then" I sarcastically answered

"so, friends?" he added as he extended his hand for me to shake.

"WOW calm down Malfoy, already on the friend basis?" I said as I Iet out a small giggle "let's just go with classmates who don't hate each other for now" I added as I finally shook his hand.

"ok, I like it, it's a little specific but I like it" he responded followed by a little smile. "I didn't promise anything about jokes tho" he then added.

"and neither did I" I responded as I winked at him .

And that was the begging of their story.

(end of flashback)

she cried even harder while thinking of that moment, followed by the memories of their hugs, kisses, dates, laughs, cries and of top of all that him, his face, the way he would always go out of his way just to make sure she was safe and happy, the only person who was able to bring her happiness in its purest form but it was just that, memories, memories of someone who marked her and was now gone.

She knew that even if everything went back to normal, life without him would never be the same, it would be a constant flash of memories mixed with an excruciating but empty feeling in her chest and y/n really didn't know if she was going to be able to bear with it.

She was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't realize she was the only person left in the great hall, that was until the golden trio came up to her and sat down next to her.

"y/n we should go" suddenly said harry with pitifulness in his voice

"I-I can't" she said as her voice was quivering. "I can't do this, he can't be-" and then she was cut off by her best friends hugging her,but she knew she couldn't accept it, not that fast, because once she did she was not going to come out of it sane.

"we know how much this hurts y/n, but you'll have to make peace with it sooner or later, just know that whenever that is, we will be here for you" said Hermione while she was doing small circles on her back in an attempt to comfort her.

"I can't Mione, I'm afraid" she responded with an empty voice

"of the future?" asked Hermione trying to help her best friend

"of myself" simply stated y/n.
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I hope you enjoyed this chapter :)
I might have cried while writing this lol.
A lot is coming to this story which I hope you understand haha
Let me know what you thought about this chapter!!