Lost Boy |Cake|✔️

11.I never thought it would be that hard

Alright!Neues Chapter ist online :)sorry ,dass ich gestern nicht updatet habe,aber ich hatte wirklich keine Zeit :(( Ich hoffe jedoch trotzdem dass auch das Kapitel gefällt & würd mich natürlich über eure Votes und Kommentare freuen :D

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P.o.V Calum
1 Monat später
Erschöpft zupfte ich an den Saiten meiner Gitarre ,und spielte somit die ersten Töne,des Liedes was ich heute fertig geschrieben habe.

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make up (natürlich hatte er kein Make-Up aber sonst würde es auffällig das es ein Junge
ist)
running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

Eine Träne verliess mein Augenwinkel.Wie sehr ich doch wünschte mit Amnesie aufzuwachen,dann würde ich mich nicht mehr so leer fühlen.So verloren.Ohne ihn war ich verloren,ich brauchte Luke sosehr,seit er nicht mehr hier ist,hat sich einiges verändert.Natürlich besteht 5sos noch,jedoch ist es nicht das Selbe,irgendetwas fehlt.Genauso zu Hause,Ashton und Michael stritten sich immer öfters,und das nur wegen mir.Sie liessen mich kaum raus,zu kaum einem Interview,ich sollte mich ausruhen,hiess es laut ihnen.