The Unsaid Goodbye

Unsaid Goodbye~ 10

I simply shook off the memories and smiled before replying...

I answered with a sigh, "Well I started spacing out so much after him so, once I was in my back garden and was thinking about him and I was having a tough time in moving on so I remembered he always wanted to write about us so I thought why not I write about us. Why not give it a try? May be then I can relive again? And even my family gave a big support to me. They wanted me to jot down everything and with that they wanted me to move on which I am doing slowly."

"Mam do you still miss him? one of them asked."

"Of course I miss him every time and I will always miss him no matter what."

"Mam is there anyone in your life after him? Or do you believe in second chance at love? After him?"

"No there is no one after him. I failed to completely move on from him, I still do love him the way I did years ago. But I am not saying I dont believe in second chances, I do believe in second chance at love but its just that I am not ready right now may be I would be in future but for now I just want to live with his memories." Tears threatened to spill so I quickly took a long breath.

Then one of them asked, "Mam, did you ever find out what was that something he wanted to tell you?"

That brought back tons of memories making my heart twist. If only is the regret I still hold. The memories still haunts and hurts me yet I have to live on.

A single tear dropped without my realization. Wiping it and before answering I sadly shook my head and with a deep sigh I replied, "Well that is still a mystery."

After which one of the host asked me to say something to the audience.

I simply smiled and cleared my throat, "Well firstly thank you all for coming here and supporting me. I am glad I could tell you guys my story. I have only one thing to say which is to never take things for granted, you never know when its gonna be just a memory so while you are onto it, go on live a life, don't waste it and make tons of memories. Thank you guys" with this and a smile on my face I walked off the stage.

Thus this is how the question answer session ended with everyone clapping making me sigh in relieve at least I was able to tell people my story and tell people to cherish moments. I smiled and thanked them all. This is how the day came to an end.

I told my family that I wanted some time to myself and they just nodded and left before saying, "Come home before it is too dark and be careful honey. I simply nodded."

As I stare into the dark sky I remembered him, his last words, hug and our memories of together. I wanted to hold him so badly and I nearly tried to kill myself right after him but then I remembered him and decided to live for him. Life seemed lone and empty without him. But I had to go on for him, for us because that is what he wanted.

The meaning in it and the charm was slowly fading away but no matter what, I will still live. Its actually been 7 years and his memories still haunt me, I could never completely move on from him. I miss him more today, 11 November. It was the day everything started and ended at same time. It was the day everything changed.

A DAY I COULD NEITHER FORGET NOR CHERISH. A day I lost everything.

I am still wondering of his last words and still so badly upset at him for living me without a proper GOODBYE, but then it was meant to happen this way. It would have been harder than this if he leaves in front of my eye but it still hurts that he never got his proper GOODBYE. Well this is my and Namdens story THE UNSAID GOODBYE

Little did I know that its the only memories left of him. Little did people know that I still miss him. Little did he know that I was broken without him. Little did the world know that he never had his proper goodbye.

P.S~Your memories still haunts and hurts me yet still you are and will be the only one in my heart. I hope you are happy there Namden. I love you.

The End.

Huff~ finally the story ended.

Yippe, I finally completed it. Hopefully whoever reads it will love it.

Happy Reading^^ Thank you whoever reads it:)