rewriting - winkun

chapter four

chapter 4:
at my worst.

Kun started taking music composition classes as he doesn't have anything to do. Lucas and Ten started promoting with SuperM and Winwin started shooting for a lot of ads. Xiaojun, Hendery, and Yangyang still have their regular Korean classes and Kun was the only one with nothing to do.

Kun started writing a song since he was a kid thanks to his mother and he has a bachelor's in vocal and music composition but to release a song with his current skill won't make it since the company standard for song release is high.

Kun should've never doubt his skill since he got accepted into the company is because of his composition skill. Yoo Youngjin, SM favorite composer had already put his eyes on him and Kun should have known it sooner. It's not because of his skill, it's because he is not Korean that why the company won't use his songs.

Click!

The sound of the door being open steals Kun's attention from the monitor. Looking at his unexpected guest, it was Winwin. It has been a while since they saw each other. He smiled at Kun as he raised the plastic he was holding. From the size of the plastic, Kun guessed it was tteok-bokki and fried chicken.

Winwin closed the door, switched on the main light as he found his way to the only coach in the small studio. Kun still didn't give him any reaction but his eyes keep on following Winwin. The younger male put down the plastic and he sat on the couch, raised his eye level to examined the older male.

"What is it?"

Winwin chuckled. What kind of question is that? Kun doesn't look pleased to see him either. Kun looked so tired and thin. He must have starved himself again following the sick rules that had forced onto him.

Kun's weight is normal, but because of his baby cheek, the company asked him to lose some more weight. Even after losing so much weight, Kun's baby fat cheek still there and the company was mad at Kun even though he already explained about his cheek. The company just brush it off started comparing him to other young idols saying that Jaehyun is younger than him and he already lost his baby fat. Why can't Kun do the same?

Kun's baby fat slowly disappeared as he turned 23. He looked so thin and it bothers Winwin a lot considering Kun loves cooking but he can only taste a little because of his fear of gaining weight. He often looks like he was dying every time after practice.

"That's how you talk to your husband after weeks of not seeing me?" Winwin teased Kun.

The older idol sighed, rub his face using his palm and raise his head giving Winwin his forced smile and Winwin tittered. Kun laughed soft seeing Winwin's reaction.

"Are we husbands?" Kun asked after a long silence.

"Yes," Winwin replied. Rubbing the couch next to him and gesturing Kun to sit next to him.

"What is it?" Kun asked after sitting next to Winwin and being forced to eat the tteok-bokki in the middle of the night. Kun knows Winwin has something to say, he rarely-- almost never visited Kun in his studio. The younger idol always tried to give Kun his space whenever he is working on songs.

"I told you! I missed you!"

"Stop lying spill it." Kun insisted. He was just worried about it since Winwin is the type of holding on to his own problems.

"Kunnnnn... it's really nothing! I missed you! I can't even miss you now??"

"You being very weird right now!" Kun started whining. Winwin will give up if he insisted like he always does. Kun is Pro-Winwin. he knew about Winwin, inside-out.