Should've Let Go

ℍ𝔼 𝕀𝕊 𝕆𝕌𝕋 𝕆𝔽 𝕄𝕐 𝕃𝕀𝔽𝔼? - 2 -

I woke up with a start. Looked at my phone. 9:00 am. I jumped off my bed. I went straight to my bathroom. Washed my face and brushed my teeth hurriedly. Changed and run as fast as I can down the stairs.

"Good morning!!!! Bye!!" Running out of  the door. As I reached to open my car door, I heard someone called my name.
"Jinyoungie?!?" I froze. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I slowly turned around.

"Mr. Wang! Oh my gosh! How are you?" whoo...thank God...it wasn't who I thought it was.

"Wow, you've grown." The elder said as he looked at me, he then continued "I'm ok Jinyoungie....Come here and give this old man a hug." Mr. Wang pulled me into a hug. He then called Mrs. Wang. "Sophia, come out here...look whose with me?" Mrs. Wang came out and gave me a hug. She pulled out off our hug to looked at me, examining my face.

"Oh, my Jinyoungie...my handsome boy. Look how you've grown. You're getting more handsome. Oh, I missed you. Wait, are you going to school? You go ahead and we'll see you later. We're visiting your parents later." She gave me a kiss and motioned me to go ahead. I bowed and waved goodbye.

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I arrived at school. 10:20. I stayed inside my car. Why? I mean, his parents were the sweetest people I've know aside from my parents. But I wasn't ready to see them this early.  After 20 minutes sitting inside my car, I finally got out and started walking towards the cafeteria.

"Jinnie!!!" I jumped when Jisoo grabbed my arm.

"Fuck! Jisoo! You scared the shit out of me!" I said with an annoyed tone.

"Oh...Kay!!! Isn't it too early to be swearing at me right now? I've been calling you...where were you? You missed our first class."

"Sorry. I'm so sorry. I woke up late. I guess, I was tired last night without me realizing —"

Jisoo cut me mid-sentence, "tired?" Jisoo narrowed her eyes and asked, "but...but...you went to your room early...before I left your house. Unless..." Jisoo stopped and gave me a suspicious grin.

"Unless what?" I asked.

"Unless, you stayed all night thinking...about someone?" Jisoo gave me another glance and said loudly, "oh my gosh!!!! You did! Don't lie to me, Park Jinyoung!"

I rolled my eyes and gave her a I don't want to talk about it look. Thankfully, Jisoo understood and changed the topic. "Where are you going now?" She asked.

I sighed and turned to her, "I already missed our first class and my 2nd class already started 30 minutes ago...so where do you think I'm going?" I replied with a one eyebrow raised.

"Wow! Oh...kay...what's with the sass? I dropped the subject right? So why are you snapping at me for? You're such a grumpy old man." Jisoo crossed her arms in front of her chest while tapping her foot.

"I'm sorry, Ji...I didn't mean to snapped at you. It was just..he..never mind. I'm going to get coffee...you coming?" I hugged her and gave her my cutest pout.

"Forgiven, Jinnie. You know what to do to make me melt. You're so lucky I love you Park Jinyoung." Jisoo pinched my cheek gently while she continued, "I would love to but my next class is at 11:00. See you at lunch? What time is your next class?" Oh my sweet Jisoo, my brother better treat her good.

"1:30, we have the same class remember? Psych?" Jisoo nodded and pushed me to go get my coffee. I hugged her again and we separated  our ways.

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"Ok are you ready to tell me why were you cranky earlier? And no, don't give me the bullshit reason that because you didn't have your caffeine fix...tell me the truth?"

I looked back at her, teary-eyed. "I can't stop it, Jisoo...I thought —"

"Whoa...Jinnie...what's wrong? Can't stop what?"

"All the memories. My thoughts. I really thought I was over him"

Jisoo realized what I was talking about. She hugged me and soothingly told me, "hey...it was understandable why you started thinking about him again, ok...what you had...what you felt for him all those years were deep —"

"But it has been 4 years since he left and...and, I shouldn't think about him anymore. I never even tried looking at that house for 4 years, Jisoo. But last night...for the first time...I looked at his window."

I tried to hold my tears but it betrayed me. It instantly fell down my cheeks, "I dreamt of him for the first time in years. So vivid. It was like the old days but we're older. Present day. Then, I got out of my house, Uncle Ruiji called my name. They're here now, Jisoo...it was just last night I heard his name and I'm already a mess...now his parents are here and what if...oh my gosh...I don't —"

Jisoo was silent. She rubbed my back and tried her best to calm me. We stayed like that for a while until my phone rang. My mom.  I wiped my tears and cleared my throat before I clicked answer.

"Nyoung-ah. Can you please pass by the bakery to get a cake after school? Your aunt Sophia and uncle Ruiji will be eating dinner with us tonight. Don't forget ok?!?" I told her I will and then hang up. I took a deep breath as I pushed myself up. I stuck my hand out for Jisoo to hold as we both walk to our next class.

"So, you feeling better? Hey...look at it as a 50/50 chance...yes, Mr. & Mrs. Wang are back but that didn't guarantee he'll follow them here. You never know ok."

I took another deep sigh and admitted that maybe I was overthinking again. "You're right. I might've been a little dramatic...I was just taken a back last night...maybe hearing his name mentioned last night was something I was not prepared for. Thanks, Jisoo."

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𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙴:

𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕒𝕤 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕒 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕤𝕒𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕦𝕚𝕗𝕦𝕝 𝕁𝕚𝕟𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕘 𝕕𝕚𝕕𝕟'𝕥 𝕡𝕠𝕤𝕥 𝕒 𝕓𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕙𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕔𝕦𝕥𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕠𝕥 𝕁𝕒𝕔𝕜𝕤𝕠𝕟,
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