Should've Let Go

𝕆ℍ....ℍ𝔼𝕃𝕃𝕆?

I can't help but think about what Mark said during lunch. Jackson talked about me for 4 years. For 4 years! Here I was all these time, trying to forget him and move on from my crush and suddenly got hit with this news. Am I happy? Of course I am fucking happy!  In fact, I can't stop smiling and no one can ruin my mood...

Well, except him, "Jinyoung hyung!!!!" My ever so annoying little brother shouted.

This boy, I swear...I will kill soon. He ruined my Jackson thoughts once again as always. I sighed and got up from where I was sitting. I stomped towards my door to open it.

"What! I swear it better be life or death or you'll die right here right now, Gyeom-ah!"

"Someone wants to talk you! So get your huge ass in here, hyung...ouch!" Yugyeom continued shouting from the end of the stairs and I guessed Jaebeom hyung smacked his head. Good for you! Ha!

I got out from my room and continued stomping down the stairs. I whined  as I approach them ans said "this better be important coz you just disturbed me from....-"

I stopped talking as soon as Mark put his phone in front of my face. Oh FaceTime with....:Jackson?

"Jinyoungie!!!! My park gae!!!! Finally!!! how are you?" Jackson greeted me with a wide smile. what a beautiful man he is. Jaebeom nudge me secretly as he passed by me.

I cleared my throat, "hey, you. I'm doing fine and how about you?" oh gosh, I sounded like my dad.

Jackson laughed, "hey you? im fine and how about you? Jinyoungie, really? after 4 years that's how you talk to me?" I silently stared at him with a puzzled look on my face. "huh?"

Jackson waved his hand and stopped laughing, "just playing with you, Nyoungie...I am doing good. I actually looked for you the other time I was on the phone with my parents but you were already in you room...thankfully, my brother is there and I finally get to see you."

I smiled at Jackson and continued to look like a fool by not saying anything. I was afraid that once I open my mouth, I might end up confessing. My heart was so overwhelmed that my brother put his arm on my shoulder and saved me.

"Jack! cat got Jinyoung's tongue...I guess, he is pretty tired, right Nyoung?" Jaebeom turned to me. I nodded and waved goodbye. I hurriedly went up to my room while I clutched my chest. I felt my heart was about to explode. 4 years. In less than 5 minutes of seeing Jackson, my heart is about to explode. I am 100% sure that I still love Jackson Wang.

After calming myself, I went to take a shower and get ready for bed. As soon as I got in bed my phone buzzed. Whose number is this? I ignored it since I wasn't familiar with the number. I goggled it to see where that number was from. China. A Chinese phone number. No way?!? My phone buzzed again and took me out from my thoughts. same number. I slide it open.

"hello?"

"Oh, did I wake you up, Nyoungie?"

"Jackson?"

"yeah, it's me....who else calls you Nyoungie?"

"ummm....no one, just you...how -"

"good to know. I thought....never mind...I'm sorry...you must be sleeping already. Go back to sleep, I'll talk to you some other time."

"no no no no....I-I meant, no, you didn't wake me up. I was just surprised that you called...since I already spoke to you an hour ago"