Night calls

Chapter 6

The call this morning ended soon after that and I was left alone in the silence I used to like so much. But why did it feel so uncomfortable this time? Silence was always something I looked forward to, whenever I was at a loud place, or even when I was talking to someone, but now? The only thing I felt was loneliness. Great! Another thing that made my life shittier.

I got up, changed and eventually fell asleep in my bed even though it was barely midday. Guess I didn't get enough sleep last night.

When I woke up two hours later my mind kept replaying our last phonecall. Eren's voice had been so desperate, it had really shocked me, and now that I had time to think about it, it had also been the reason I'd calmed down again.

I hadn't even known him for too long, so how could it be that he already had this much power over me? I turned to lay on my back but I knew I wouldn't be able to fall back to sleep, so I figured standing up was just as good.

I didn't do much after that. Most of what was left of my Sunday passed while I was reading, but at approximately 4 pm my phone rang and Hanjy practically threatened me to accompany her to a café that had just recently opened.

It had actually been quite nice to spend time with my friend, but I kept thinking about Eren. What was he doing right now? He sounded really happy, when we started our call but after my...break he was extremely down. I really hoped he had someone to cheer him up again...

After I got home there was nothing for me to do, so I just decided to clean. That was something I actually enjoyed doing.

Three years ago, when I had my.. let's say breakdown, my room or what had been left of it, had always been filthy, dusty and most importantly stacked with garbage. Whenever I saw a room like that now or even a room that hadn't been tidied in a while I remembered these days. And I hated remembering that time.

Just as always I got really involved with my work, which was also the reason I almost jumped at the sound of my vibrating phone.

It couldn't be Hanji considering I had just met her half an hour ago.

So I was pretty sure it'd be either Erwin or Eren. To be honest I hoped for the latter.

Weirdly enough my heartbeat sped up when I actually saw his name on the screen. Was it because of the weird mood during the earlier call, that I was kinda tense now? Well it didn't matter. I just hoped he was alright...

When I answered the call I was greeted with silence instead of anything that would trigger a conversation. Normally he'd start rambling as soon as I picked up, but obviously not this time. Was he still down from this morning?

After a few seconds had passed without either of us saying anything, I could hear his breathing perfectly clear so it wasn't the connection's fault, I decided to start this. Didn't want to waste my time in a phone call where no one was saying anything...

I cleared my throat.

L:„ Eren? R U there?"

E: „..."

L: „ Why're you not saying anything?"

E: „..."

L: „ ..."

L: „ Ok look, If this still is because of our earlier call then I apologize okay?"

E: „..."

L: „ Eren this is ridiculous."

E: „ ..."

L: „ (sights) If you're not answering I'm hanging up."

What was up with him? If he didn't want to talk to me, why bother calling? I waited a few more seconds but Eren didn't say anything so I hung up. To be honest, I almost had to force myself to do so, because part of me was too worried to just end this here. It wasn't like Eren at all to do something like that and yeah I just had a bad feeling about it. But what was I supposed to do? Obviously he didn't want to talk to me so there wasn't much else I could do...