I want to say that this chapter deals with feelings I have personally been succumbed to and I do not wish it on anybody. For this portion, I am honestly writing through my experience so please do not call Y/N-chan dumb or post mean comments. Thanks :)
TW: dysphoria, bad thoughts from breakup (not caused by Suga btw)
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It had been two months. Two months and the heartbreak still hasn't stopped. The worst breakup you had ever endured. It plagued your sleep, your body, your habits, and worst of all, your mind. You dreamt about him, praying for it to come true. It was a pain that was unbearable for you. You didn't leave the house, except for school. You hardly messaged anyone, even your parents, and those who tried to check on you often. Your parents were often fed up with your sunken state, constantly saying things like "You can't live like this forever." "You have to move on." "You'll find someone else." But you didn't believe them. You had found your one true soulmate and they grew tired of you.
Your alarm clock went off and you opened your eyes, sighing as you had to bear yet another heart wrenching dream of your past lover. You could still remember the kisses you shared and the memories that were slowly starting to dissipate, but still lingered heavily in your mind. This will never end..
You went into the bathroom to brush your teeth and stared at yourself in the mirror. You grew to hate yourself after the breakup. You never put in the effort to straighten/curl your hair and make it look nice. You no longer wore any kind of makeup. You didn't want to stand out anymore. You didn't feel right catching the attention of other people, especially guys. How could anyone love me again? I don't deserve love from anyone else.
You ultimately felt used and broken. You were no longer the perky, happy person you were before. Even the kids at school knew what kind of breakup you had gone through, but they thought it was stupid that you weren't over it yet. It was just a high school fling in everyone else's eyes. But it wasn't like that at all.
You had lost a piece of yourself to another person who didn't want anything to do with you anymore.
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