Indulgence [h.s]

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Harry:

What the fuck did I just do.

As soon as I made it out of that bathroom, I dissolved into the sea of swaying intoxicated bodies. The moment kept replaying in my head like a song on repeat, but this time it was a song that brought back bad memories.

I told her my name.

I told her my fucking name.

Am I on fucking drugs? I never tell girls my name. Ever. It's just weird for me to do that. They always think we're going to have some sort of a relationship after I fuck their brains out, which is never the case. In my opinion, it's useless for me to tell them my name.

I sped walked all the way back to the bar, hoping she wouldn't catch a glimpse of me. I really didn't want to look at her again. If I looked at her I feel like my body would go into shock, not knowing how to process my feelings at all.

As soon as I made it over to the bar, I grabbed the closest bottle of alcohol near me and poured myself a heavy shot and took it down like it was water. I felt the burn of the liquid coating my throat and before I knew it, A second one came crashing down my esophagus. I needed at least 5 shots after what happened tonight.

This was unlike any other situation I've been in. I knew that once she walked into the party, I was done for. She was absolutely intoxicating to look at and I felt as if I were to look at her any longer, my heart and my dick would give out.

I glanced around the apartment and noticed Liam and Louis were together talking and Niall was talking to some chick at the party and I pointed to them so they knew to meet me in the corner of the party. Once they made it to me, I was already freaking the fuck out.

"Woah Styles, you alright there mate?" Liam asks me.

"Not in the slightest bit Liam. I'm currently losing my absolute shit."

"What happened to you anyway? We lost you for about a good 10 minutes. We saw you chatting with this girl and then poof, you disappeared into thin air."

"I'll explain later. I can't really see her after what happened so please act like you know nothing has happened to me. Just know that her name is Jade and her best friend is Kaia."

"Okay mate we'll keep an eye out for you and let you know if anything happens" Liam assures me. I nodded to them and took a deep breath. They are doing so much for me right now. I wish I could thank them more, but right now I need to get my shit under control.

Once we finished our conversation, I walked across the apartment to another bathroom and closed the door and locked it. It was much smaller surprisingly. This apartment has like 4 bathrooms and I only use the one next to my bedroom, so seeing different spaces in my apartment is very new, but a nice change of pace.

I splashed water on my face and tried to take deep breaths to calm the rising anxiety in my body, but nothing was working for me. I realized that tonight, I needed to go upstairs and go spend some time alone. My anxiety was the highest it's been in months and this situation wasn't helping that.

I made my way to the staircase and upstairs to my room which was far away from the mayhem that was happening downstairs, but I tried not to be seen by Jade. I walked into my room and slammed the door shut but no one could hear it over the loud music reverberating against the walls.

I started to take off my suit and slipped off each of my rings that decorated her neck just 5 minutes ago and threw them into a dish that sat on my clothing dresser. I slipped off my pants and grabbed gray sweatpants and threw those on for a bit of comfort. I felt like my dick was being constricted in those pants and when she was teasing me, I wanted to fuck her right there on the bathroom sink, but that was too easy for both me and her. I wanted to give her a taste of her own medicine.