𝙰𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗|𝗶𝘄𝗮𝗼𝗶

ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪғ's

Christmas is suppose to be cheery, the thoughts of gifts and hanging out with your family imprinted in your head.The leftover cookies that Santa didn't eat waiting for you on the dining room table.

The filled stockings, the Hallmark movies coming to an end, getting to wear the Christmas pajamas you saved just for this specific day.

You were suppose to feel happy that finally the day was here (unless you were naughty that year and got coal for Christmas, but who really got coal for Christmas?).

But Oikawa, he could only drag himself downstairs and chug the milk was the same as he left it last night.

Well since Kiyoko's gone, the person who would usually eat the cookies and drink the milk, there was no reason for him to believe in Santa.

So he sadly ate the cookies before dragging all the gifts for his friends out the hall closet, moving them into the living room where the party would be held.

At least, where everyone said it would be held. With everything that happened last night, Oikawa knew at least one person would be missing from the crowd.

Iwaizumi.

Instead of spending all night thinking about him when he got home, Oikawa immediately jumped in bed and cried himself to sleep.Big fat droplets staining his pillowcases in a deeper shade than they were suppose to be.

All of his feelings were jumbled up and he found that they were no longer revolving around Kiyoko, they were revolving around Iwaizumi and the kiss.

He questioned himself on why he ran away from that perfect moment. It was so tremendously cliche and he ruined it by standing up and leaving.

But then Iwaizumi let him leave, his olive green eyes watched him run away, back into the blanket that had protected him from reality.

Next thing he knew, he was curled up on the couch in his living room waiting for his modeling group to show up. It was decided that each group would get a little time to themselves before joining together.

There would be a lot of conversation about things Oikawa would rather not speak of.

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"Since everyones to nervous to start the conversation I will" Kenma mutters over the rustling of bags "what the hell happened Oikawa"

Everyone paused and stared at Oikawa with questions dripping from there eyes.

Oikawa wanted it all to drop to the floor, creating a ocean he would never enter. Instead, he absorbed every look and every questioning glance at once.

He was like a sponge, once he was filled to the point of no return, he would spill. Spill every lie he'd ever told and every truth he'd yet to tell.

"I....kissed Iwaizumi...?"

"Why are you saying it like a question?" Semi asks, refusing to look at the brunette.

Silent hums of agreement filled the room as Oikawa sighed. "Because I shouldn't have done it and I still can't believe I did"

"There was a video," Kageyama opens up a gift from Suga with a silent thanks. "He leaned in first and ghosted your lips. It might sound weird of me to be paying attention that well, but it seemed as if he was waiting for your next move"

Atsumu nods, "Then you moved. You wanted that Oikawa"

Oikawa glares at the two who usually bicker and tease each other, who were now confronting him on his actions.

Usually Oikawa was the relationship counselor, it was always him giving advice instead of receiving it. He was always the one confronting someone on there actions or a new found crush.

This felt different and it itched at Oikawa's skin.He didn't like it.

"So what if I wanted it, it's all fake in the end, correct?" Oikawa snaps. "It's all fake because this is just a stunt for attention, popularity. We never agreed to fall in love, we never agreed to crush on the other. Matter of fact, we never agreed to anything so why do I feel like I'm breaking the rules"

"Oikawa-San...." Kogane mutters breathlessly.

"Why, why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I changed Kiyoko, who's saying I can't change Iwa-Chan. He sure wasn't straight then but what if he wants to be now. If I was so utterly disgusting that kiyoko didn't like me, what makes you think Iwaizumi could think of me in some romantic way"

Oikawa pulls at the ends of his hair.It wasn't hard enough to break any off or tug his head forward, just hard enough to let him know your still standing, keep going.

"I had so much damn worthless pride that I though I'm so perfect, maybe one day I'll marry kiyoko or oh Aashi I'm beautiful, who wouldn't love me. I jinxed my damn self and who says I won't do it again" Oikawa sighs.

Kenma aggressively sets down his switch, "WELL DAMN TOORU, WHO SAID THAT IWAIZUMI WAS KIYOKO!! LAST TIME I CHECKED THEY WEREN'T THE SAME PERSON!"

Oikawa's Adam's apple bobs up and down as he swallows, slowly nodding to Kenma's words.

"I understand where your coming from Tooru. When I found our Daichi started dating this girl named Michimiya, I was stuck.With all the moves I had made how did he not like me" Suga scoffs "I've already gotten my happily ever after, but that's only because I did something"

"Things can change, Tooru" Atsumu says "Omi Omi changed. When we first met, he wouldn't even let me in a six feet radius of him. We had to face time a lot. Then he started trusting me and we got closer, but that was only because of mutual conversation and understanding"

"You and Iwaizumi need a lot of that" Semi mutters, getting lightly shoved by Shirabu.

Oikawa fiddles with the itchy Christmas sweater Akaashi made him wear.It was a Santa Claus suit print and Akaashi made him wear a matching hat to go with it.

"I should....probably talk to him when he gets here..." Oikawa mutters.

"No" Akaashi says sternly "your going right now"

And that was how Iwaizumi opened the door of his apartment to see Oikawa why a bag of cookies and a shy smile.

"Merry Christmas Iwa-Chan"

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So happy my writing style has changed from this. This is a old book that I'm reposting.

EnnoTana or pretty setter squad (with ships) next???

Toodles noodles