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Since wala pa akong maisip na isulat sa ICTBHWY na chap, naisipan ko namang isulat to. It keeps bugging me eh. Halos di ako makatulog -,- Tapos may random plot na namang pumasok sa isip ko at I really want to write kaya yun muna hoho. Tsar, makapagsalita mukhang may readers. Tsar ulit. Anyways, enjoy~
INSECURITIES
I am almost finished on writing my story! And I'm so happy! OMG!! EEKK!
"Ano ba kase yang ginagawa mo?" tanong ng kapatid kong kanina pa akong kinukulit.
"Baket nga? May sinusulat pa akong story," wika ko. Lumapit naman siya para tingnan yung ginagawa ko.
"Para saan?"
"Sa wattpad hehe," nakangiting sabi ko. I also dreamt on being a famous writer someday but I don't think it'll happen.
"Tch. Akala ko assignment mo yan, paheram na nga kase ng laptopppp," pamimilit niya. Manonood raw kase siya ng anime.
"Ugh. Mamaya na nga, may ginagawa pa ako oh," Lumapit pa siya ng konte na para bang binabasa yung tinatype ko.
"I feel bad to someone who reads your stories," Napatigil ako sa pagtype. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng konteng inis pero pinigilan ko lang. Umalis naman siya at pumunta sa kama niya para magselpon. Inirapan ko na lang siya.
You know, this is my comfort zone, I enjoy and I really love writing but hearing someone saying that, lalo na't kadugo mo pa ang nagsabi. I feel really down knowing na it is one of my insecurities since I am not a perfect writer, and hearing her saying that makes me think na my stories suck. I already had small amount of readers but then she said that without hesitating. Gladly, I didn't get any bash or bad comments about my story. But anyways, inalis ko na yun sa isipan ko at nagpatuloy sa pagta-type.
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I just wished that happiness would last longer. I want to be like this happy always. I hope nothing ruins my day.
Exam results just came up. I was nervous for my results but I did my best anyways. I'm worried on what my parents would think if I had a failing grade. I've always been jealous of my sister since she has high grades compared to mine. She always got praised by our parents that made me pushed myself down.
"Karen," tawag ni Ma'am sa pangalan ko kaya tumayo ako at pumunta sa table niya para tanggapin ang test paper.
I got half of the score but it's still a passing score tho. I'm still glad I made up this far.
"Karen, ilan ka?" tanong ni Sarah.
