Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
talia's most dreaded day, finally here.
she was sitting on the dorm couch, knees pulled up against her chest, and her fluffy beige throw sloppily covering her body. the tv, turned up loud, played an ad as a break for the MMA.
her members weren't there to accompany her in their dorm. they were currently in that huge venue, probably backstage getting ready for their performance or sitting waiting for the break time to end.
talia had to miss her first ever MAMA, a very important award show for rookie, and now she gets to miss the MMAs. what a year. . .
before the boys left for their long night at the award show they were making it very difficult for talia to relax. beomgyu started the conversation about how emotional he was feeling leaving talia behind for a second award show.
beomgyu asked, "well, what if we get an award?"
talia rushed to grab beomgyu's shoes, handing them to him and nearly pushing him out the door so he wouldn't make the rest of the boys late.
"accept it! i'll be watching, it's like i'm there!"
beomgyu grabbed his shoes and held them against his body, "i want you to come."
"i'm sick," talia responded, "i can't attend."
her conversation with beomgyu earlier that morning was almost all she could think about. it hurt her feelings that they were so upset that she couldn't attend, she didn't want them to worry about her.
talia pulled her blanket closer to her body, wrapping it around her shoulders to mimic that feeling of comfort. a warm sensation rushing through her body.
performance after performance, award after award, and speech after speech. it felt like it would be ages until she even saw a glimpse of her members on the screen.
until it wasn't that long of a wait anymore. the moment she saw soobin on the camera, showing off a shining smile with a friendly wave, she wanted to jump out of her seat.
however, the only thing she could do was sigh.
talia wanted to be there so bad. she wanted to cheer and clap for all the other idols, she wanted to listen to the acceptance speeches and secretly still some lines for her own future speech, and she wanted to perform!
talia leaned forward, pushing the blanket off of her and watched it fall to the floor, and she grabbed the plate of food she made hours ago. she stood and threw the cold untouched food away. her appetite was gone completely.
she wandered around in small circles when she left the kitchen, reentering the living room. after a few minutes of making herself dizzy as a distraction, she grabbed a glass of water for hydration.
hopefully it would drown this sickness out.
just as she lifted the glass to her lips she heard a familiar tune rushing her ears. it was coming from the tv. talia's hand slipped as she slammed the glass on the counter and sprinted toward the living room again.
"oh!" she shouted.
her sock-covered feet slid in front of the couch and she threw herself on the cushions in excitement. her head rested in her hands and her eyes suddenly became glued to the television.
yeonjun appeared on the screen.
their opening was playing and she couldn't be happier to be watching such a moment. she knew exactly what their positions were and she even danced along after memorizing practice days earlier.
"wow!"
talia couldn't even express how proud she was of her members if someone was to ask her. words wouldn't be able to tell enough. the detail that they put into this performance finally executed on stage was amazing.
finally she noted what she thought was a mistake in their choreography. they were making a lot of mistakes. there were a lot of empty positions that the camera was capturing. . .
"what is going on?" she mumbled to herself, her eyebrows furrowing.
it wasn't until her lines in their song came up that she noticed they weren't singing her parts. they never assigned someone to "be her", to sing her lines, or even dance in her position.
they left it open for her.
those empty positions were where she was supposed to be, those empty lines were when she was supposed to sing, and that chance to "be her" was never taken up because it was always going to be her whether she was there or not.
talia's heart swelled with how thoughtful her members where. never had she ever met people more beautiful than them in her life.
as their performance came to an end, she stood to her feet and clapped loudly. she whispered words of amazement. her hands turning a slight red from how long and hard she had been clapping for her boys.
"they did so well!" she spoke to herself.
an hour went by just full of more idols performing perfectly to wonderful songs. some of which talia was a huge fan of. she danced along, sang alone, and even clapped along to her fellow idols performances.
within the next fifteen minutes, award after award was handing out to varying groups sitting in the crowd. finally, the winners for the 'new artist of the year' award was being announced.
"tomorrow by together!"
talia's mouth dropped in shock and she jumped from her seat for the hundredth time that night. her feet lifting off the floor and landing back on it with a bang several times in a row.
her excitement settled into amazement. she watched as her members walked up the steps, across the stage, and accepted their award with grace.
after their leader, soobin, gave the group's speech, beomgyu hesitantly approached the mic and started off his speech by greeting their fans in the crowd (and the ones watching!).
"noona! thank you for supporting us from home," beomgyu added, "we wish you were here to accept this special award with us!"
