Eternity// F.W

VIII. I care

Thea woke up at 11 pm after her alarm clock went off, she got up and headed to the mirror she had in her room, again she had tear stains on her cheeks, she wiped them off, but her eyes were still puffy, she took her bag with everything she needed and headed to the astronomy tower, she liked arriving early, mostly because even though outside is cold she would always find comfort looking up at the stars while feeling the fresh air run through her lungs, she never quite understood why stars made her feel so calmed and accompanied, though she remembers once that her dad used to tell her that whenever she felt sad or even lonely, she could always look up to the sky and remember that the stars would always shine above her head, and as she thought about everything that has been going on she felt a small tear run down her cheek, quickly she wiped it off and took a deep breath.
She could hear footsteps coming over, as she got up she met face to face with the rest of her class and of course Professor Sinistra
Thea's POV:
"Oh, Miss Lupin, I see you have arrived early," she said sweetly
"Yes Professor, just wanted to see how the sky was," I said looking up at the beautiful night sky full of stars
"Very well then," she said heading to the front of the tower so she was facing all of us, as she started talking I felt a hand upon my shoulder
It was George, he gave me a soft reassuring smile, I returned the smile weakly as if I was suffering while I did it. He and Angie both looked very worried, perhaps they heard my cry, I suddenly felt worse.
The class went on as usual, and once it was over I walked back to the castle with my head hanging low as I got to the tower I noticed how much I needed a hug, I was sure that if I hugged Fred at this moment, everything would have felt better, safer. The world was better when he was around me, it was happier, brighter, safer, calmer.
I went up to my room and caught Freddie sleeping peacefully there, I quickly grabbed him softly and settled him down at my side, I changed into my pyjamas and got into bed, slowly more tears came into me, and I couldn't fight them off, as I sat there crying over merlin knows what anymore, I couldn't help but just want to get up and go lay in bed with Fred slowly humming a song I like.
That night I just cried, at 5 am I slowly fell asleep, as the last tears fell down my red cheeks.
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"Thea please get up," said Angelina
"I am feeling sick today, I won't be getting up"
"But it is tryouts," said Angelina
"So?" I asked
" You always come and cheer us up during tryouts," she said
"You don't need cheering," I said sadly "Besides I don't have cheerfulness inside of me"
"That doesn't mean you can't come and watch," she said
"Why?" I asked
"Because you won't know who got in if not," she said
"As if I need to know, you guys are the best team there is, surely Oliver won't replace you," I said "You guys don't need me there, I might just ruin the mood"
"You won't I promise," she said
"I will because Fred will see me and get in a bad mood," I said
"Fine then, just stay here crying all day as you have done every day," she said harshly standing up
"Angie don't you think that's a bit harsh?" said Alicia
"What am I supposed to do, I've tried everything, she has been like that for weeks, if it wasn't for the classes she wouldn't even get up, and if it wasn't for us having to use school robes she might even walk around in her pyjamas all day," she said
"Cut the girl some slack," said Melissa, our bond has become stronger ever since she helped me and honestly I am glad, she is one of the few people who don't judge me or pressure me
"Cut her some slack?! I have cut her plenty of slack, it has been almost 2 weeks since her and Freds fight and she has barely eaten, look at her" she said almost shouting "Guys, I get you want to give her some space and everything, but I have given her plenty of space and I hate seeing my friend this sad, gosh not even her father knows what to do"
End POV
After a few more minutes of fighting, where Thea didn't even pay attention, they left for tryouts leaving her and Freddie alone in the big room, she stroked her cats back as he slept, Thea never understood why there was a need for tryouts, ever since Harry arrived, the team has been amazing, yet perhaps they wanted to give a fair chance to everyone, after a few minutes of silence she got up and looked at herself in the mirror, she did look much skinnier, even if she had barely eaten in weeks is just surprising how fast she lost her weight, she decided to grab a book and head towards the kitchen.
As soon as she tickled the pear, the door swung open, revealing a bunch of house elves, one, in particular, came rushing down to Thea with his eyes just shining as bright as the stars she loved to watch
"Ah miss lupin it is always a pleasure," said the house-elf clumsily doing a little courtesy
"Hello Tommy how has everything been," said thea
"Everything fine miss, excellent indeed," he said
"Miss would you like us to prepare the same thing as always?" asked politely one of the other house-elves
"Yes please Wanda" responded thea politely
"Come miss, we have the fire ready for you miss, please seat," said Tommy
"Thank you," said thea sitting down on the couch by the fire waiting for her meal
"Here you go miss," said Wanda handing her a plate with hot apple pie and a mug with hot chocolate
"Thank you," said thea whilst eating her apple pie
Angelina's POV
"Hey, where's Thea" asked George
"She is not coming," I said
"Why? she always comes," said George
"She wasn't feeling good," said Melissa
"and you guys just left her?" asked George
"Yes, what were we supposed to do? drag her down here against her will?" I said
"Exactly," said George "Not leave her upstairs alone to cry herself to sleep"
"You know we couldn't do that, especially not to her," I said
"She just needs time, space, and a good support system," said Melissa
"She needs to get her sorry ass up," said George
"Don't be rude George, she is sad because she doesn't understand Fred, besides she misses him" I said understanding Thea, after a heated argument back in our dorm
"I know she does, but she can't stay sad forever, It hurts me to see her like that, and I bet it hurts Fred too," said George
"We know, we promise she won't stay sad she just needs a little more time," said Melissa
End of POV
Thea's Pov
I walked back to the common room, I was finally feeling better.
If I didn't go on walks or to the astronomy tower, I would do my homework or read in my room, that was how I managed to keep the girls from asking questions or pressuring me to go and talk to Fred, and at nights it was common for me to cry myself to sleep, I learnt how to do it quietly, but I know the girls still know I do it.
I walked back to my room and sat there on my bed, how did I get myself in this mess? I have been in school for less than 2 months, my best friend doesn't talk to me and I cry myself to sleep at nights, this is just a great way to start my 5th year.
Melissa came back a while after, I'm not so sure when maybe because over the last 2 weeks keeping track of time hasn't been my priority
"Hey," She said, "How are you feeling?"
"Like actual shit," I said
"Well if it helps you were right, everyone got in the team," she said softly
"I know," I said
"You know George is worried about you, and it hurts him to see you like this," she said "You know he is your best friend too thea"
"I know, he just remembers me of Fred," I said sadly " Even if they look and act completely different"
"You should talk to him," she said "George I mean"
"I Will, when the time is right," I said

Fred's POV
I don't like to cry in front of people, but I know I look sad in front of them, mostly because they look at me as though I would break at the sight of Thea, I might if I am honest, I haven't spoken to her in weeks, and as much as I miss her I'm scared of speaking to her, sometimes in class, I look at her, and it breaks my heart, she looks like a ghost, she never eats and her face doesn't have colour anymore, it is as though she had an invisible dementor hunting her.
As we walk out of the castle to get to the pitch I see George approach the girls, but I didn't see Thea between them, she never missed practice and even less tryouts, I heard George get frustrated at them, he was pretty nervous with tryouts and seeing Thea and me sad doesn't help him, he approached me and said
"You have to speak to her"
"I cant George"
"Why not mate, she misses you so much"
"No, she doesn't," I said "Why would she? I was a git"
"Because you are her best friend and even though you were a git with her she cares about you," he said "Besides you care about her too, and you really fancy her,"
"So what if I fancy her, that won't change that I was a git"
"She doesn't care if you were a git," he said angrily "Gosh Fred you are a bloody idiot, she cries herself to sleep every night,"
"She what?"
"She cries herself to sleep mate, every single night," he said now looking sad "Just please make an effort and fix things soon, especially since Angie's birthday is coming soon and she wants both of you there"
"I will try," I said whilst I sighed
"yeah well you have less than a week mate"
George was right, I should apologise to her, I don't know why I got so mad at her in the first place, and I haven't spoken to her since her date, which apparently didn't go so well after I saw Kenneth with this Ravenclaw girl, I mean I was glad that I didn't go well because at least he Will leave her alone.
~Fred's Flashback~
after Thea stormed up the stairs to her room I decided to go and talk "politely" to Kenneth, I walked back to my room as I felt the anger stir up on my stomach, I just can't believe he kissed her, he can't, he shouldn't, I can't believe I am so scared to ask her out myself, I should be the one kissing her, not my roommate. I opened the door and walked straight up to Kenneth pointing my wand at him.
"Don't you dare Kiss her again!" I said
"Why? because she is your angel?" he said smirking
"Because she is not your girlfriend," I said
"Neither is she yours," he said
I could feel George and Lee trying to pull me away from him
"But at least I care about her," I said "Unlike you who harrases her into going out"
"I would say she much enjoyed my company today dear Freddie," he said smirking again, I wanted so bad to punch that smirk off his face
"SHUT UP!" I said as angry as I have ever been
"Make me," he said
and without even a second thought I punched him so hard my knuckles started to bleed and bruise up, I am pretty sure I broke his nose at that point but I didn't care, he treated Thea so poorly and I knew he would use her, 5 years being his roommate has taught me that he just likes to use girls and dump them afterwards and I wouldn't let that happen to thea, not as long as I'm here to protect her, not that she needs it because she has always been quite brave and she never needed my help, but I've always wanted to protect her because to me she is so precious, just like Ginny, I would kill anyone who messed with them because I love them.
~end of flashback~

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word count: 2233
Hi, so today I won't be at my home which means I can't write because I haven't got my computer.
Tomorrow's chapter is going to be posted later than usual, if I got any problems might post it on Saturday.
As always
Love,
Author<3