Can I Be Him?

7

Third Person's POV

Both were greeted with silence but the voices on the stage are heard since it is echoing in the quiet room.

Sunghoon ducked Jake with him as they hid in the chairs.

"Now what?"

A voice from the stage started. Sunghoon is not liking what he's feeling but he's pushing everything aside. He always take sideway glances to Jake beside him who has his head lowered down.

Sunghoon wanted to hold his hand but he just erased the thought.

"I'm done. I can't do this anymore."

Jake raised his head and looked at Sunghoon. They both recognized the voice.

"Come on Heeseung. Just a few months left and it's your second anniversary right?"

The man asked as the other ones laughed. Sunghoon formed his fists as he stared at Jake. Who is now back staring at the ground.

"No shit Hee, I'm sure you can still make it."

Sunghoon closed his eyes as he tried to collect his thoughts.

'This isn't going on what I'm thinking right? Hyung. I hope I'm wrong.'

"No for real I'm done. I can't stand him anymore."

Then Sunghoon heard a faint sniff. He looked at Jake only to find him still fighting back his tears.

He never hesistated this time. He held Jake's hands as he whispered to him.

"Let's get out of here already."

But to his surprise, Jake shook his head and answered.

"No. I want to hear everything. I need to make sure."

Sunghoon clenched his jaw. As they continued listen with him still holding Jake's hand. Very tight.

"No fun. You always spoils the fun Hee."

"I had enough. He's..."

"Wait. Are you falling for real?!?!"

Then loud laughs are echoed in the room.

"FOR REAL HEESEUNG?! YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM?!?!"

"Dude I thought you won't!? Where's the 'just a piece of cake' now huh?"

They keep on laughing as Sunghoon stares at Jake who's absentmindedly holding to Sunghoon's hand very tight now.

"He don't deserve the pain. He's too innocent to be hurt."

"Can you hear yourself? You said you wanted to prove us that you're deserving right? You have your position in the team now. You have the fame. Dude just a few months more and you're free from Jake. Is that really hard to do? You really fell for him?"

Sunghoon can feel himself bursting. He can't believe this. All these time, everything was fake. It was all a dare.

'He didn't love him. He didn't love the one that I love. How could he hurt him like this.'

Whether Jake likes it or not, Sunghoon grabbed him as they went outside as quiet as they can.

The moment they went out. Jake dropped himself to the floor. As he let those tears fall. Sunghoon inhales as he closed his eyes.

If only he could just erase everything. He can't stand seeing Jake like this. He can't look at him. He feels his pain. The one that he loves the most for the past 4 years is hurting right in front of him.

"W-why......."

The first words that escaped on Jake's mouth....

"Am I n-not enough? I'm not worth to love? Am I really not w-worth it? Am I—"

Unable to stop himself, Sunghoon sat down to hug Jake. He held him tight as he hold back his tears.

"No. You're more than enough Jake. You are. He don't deserve you. He's a total trash."

"No. He said he love me. He really did. The look in his eyes. Everything was real. Everything was real. Everything was a l-lie"

Sunghoon held him tighter than ever as Jake continued to cry. Even if he's struggling to hold him, he never let Jake go.

Then the door opened.