I've never been the type of person that is setimental to firsts.
I don't care what my first words were, I don't care who my first kiss will be to, I don't even care who my "first time" will be with. To be honest with you I've never understood that unspoken rule that all of your firsts have to be perfect. I know, its exciting to experiance new things, but it causes too much pressure and expectations that are way too high. I try to live life without any expectations as a matter of fact.
Anyway, it's quite ironic that my favorite quote is about firsts. It came from a character from a 90's sitcom I used to watch with my dad when the oldest daughter of the family featured in the show was starting high school. She said "High school is the first day of the rest of our lives." Cheesy and trite, I know, but those words always stuck with me; they haunted me, really. I remember laying in bed as a little girl and fantasizing about what my time in high school would be like, as if it were some far away world that I could only wish to be a part of. Then one night, much more recently in life, I realized that high school was a very real world that I could only wish not to be a part of.
That same sitcom depicted high school as a dog-eat-dog world where the most important thing in the world was acceptance by Popular Girl, who of course is the head cheerleader (Goooo Bulldogs!) and dating Popular Guy, the disarmingly cute quarterback of the football team. Make one mistake that crosses Popular Girl and be subject to endless torture from her Obnoxious Wanna-Be Henchwomen. Or even worse: exiled to the lunch table in between the trash cans and the Yucky Nerd Boys. At which point you're better off eating in a bathroom stall or just not even showing up to school anymore.
I know that version of high school was purely fiction but it always made me speculate that it was based on fact. I certainly don't want my high school experiance to be anything like the one portrayed that show, but naturally I decided not to have any expectations. My friends have aspirations of getting the lead in the musical or getting first place at track invitationals or maintaining a 4.0 or getting a boyfriend. Not me. My only plan for the next four years is to stay under everyone's radar and graduate with no regrets. Unfortunately, my plan commences tomorrow, the first day of the rest of my life.
