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You are.. special

"Well uh, that was something else" Faith says with a giggle, clearly unsure how to react, I look at her with a smirk knowing exactly what I did, I slowly flip her hoodie back from being inside out and hand it over to her "well I hope it was something else, I don't think anyone has ever done that for you" I reply back with a soft laugh, sitting on the edge of the bed I just stare, it's hard not to look at her when I never thought I'd have been given the option to do anything like that with her, "what do you keep looking at? Seriously there's nothing to look at" she shakes her head and laughs, "there is literally everything to look at, you're one thousand percent a goddess in my eyes and I can't believe I even get the chance to look at you like this" I get out quickly before she can even stop me from saying anything, I slowly stand up, stretch my arms and crack a couple finger knuckles, I walk over to her and wrap my arms around her and pull her close, she lays her head on my shoulder softly and I run my hands up and down her back, occasionally just holding her tightly in between the strokes of my hands, I wish I could make her feel this type of love every hour of the day. I slowly let her go, though I wish we could stand there all day long, her hugs make me feel like the world isn't crashing down around me, like I could feel okay one day, it's surreal and I have no way of truly understanding it, though I try so hard all the time. "Why'd you let go" she exclaims loudly with a pouty face, I laugh and grab her tight again, "I'm sorry beautiful, my bad, I won't go anywhere if you don't want me to" I say softly, I know if I was allowed I would stay forever and just hold her, but, we can't let her know that, can we?

We stood like that for over ten minutes, but I knew she had to leave, I ever so slowly walked her down the stairs to the door, she slid her boots on with keys in hand and I just grab her, and kiss her hard, "I'm sorry, I just uh, couldn't exactly let you go without that, who knows what could happen, right?" I kinda laugh softly and hug her again shortly, opening the door behind her, letting her out, "well, thanks for that I guess, will I ever see you again?" I say with a smirk and laugh, "you're dumb" she laughs loudly as she walks towards her truck, I watch her hop in and get it started up, it rumbles as she throws it into reverse to back out, and I stand and wave, "goodbye beautiful" I softly whisper to myself, sighing as I close the door behind me, I lean against it and just breathe, wow, that was a lot, she's truly just, everything that anyone could ever dream of, oh boy I'm in for it now..

A few hours roll by, extremely slowly if you ask me, everything feels different without her exhilarating smile around, life feels darker, much more lonely. I sit around, smoking my weed and just listening to my music, getting lost in the sound of her voice mixed with the songs we've listened to, she truly has the voice of an angel. My thoughts dance through my mind like flames of desire, all I do is think about how she is, how she portrays herself as a person, how she truly feels, how her eyes show me she feels, I wish I could just know every single thing about her, without having to question everything all at once. Mom gets up around four thirty and it's off to work at five, we hit Tim Hortons and get her a coffee to stay up, and we're at the office in less than ten minutes. I get everything in the office, smokes, lighters, and phone, generally all the essentials, and we're ready to go for the next twelve hours, which sounds crazy if you're not getting paid for it, which I'm not, but it's worth it to not be alone, and especially when Faith comes around, that makes it hundreds of times better. "What are you thinking about kid" mom asks looking at me questionably, "just about how slow these next 12 hours are probably going to go, let's hope we get more than six calls" I answer back fast, hoping she hasn't caught on to too much at least. "Ohhh, huh, okay, that would be nice wouldn't it" she says with a laugh, whew, I think we're in the clear for that one. She generally knows how much I want Faith, and she can more than likely tell when I look at her, but hey, it's good for the self esteem to think you're good at keeping secrets, isn't it? I sit on my phone talking to Faith whenever she responds, I try to respond as fast as possible to get every minute to talk to her, but within the next forty minutes her and Brady pull up! Ahhh my favourite face, I try not to let on too much, Brady already had suspicions and I don't want to get my ass beat, because I mean, look at her, who wouldn't get mad for some lesbian stealing their woman. She hops in the office with that beaming smile that I adore so much, "oh look who's here" I exclaim, surprised at how fast she came to the office, "yeah I mean, of course I couldn't just not come and say hi, right?" she states with a laugh, "well you're not wrong, it would be rude to miss a chance to hangout with me, wouldn't it?" I respond, knowing I'm being as cocky as ever, "maybe a little bit" she replies fast, I glance at her with a small smirk on my face and immediately she gets a little red in the face and turns away, heh, cute, I giggle to myself a little. "I'm here too ya know" Brady pops in from behind me, oops, I forgot he was still around, I inhale deeply, "right how's it going Brady?" I ask, with not nearly as much excitement in my tone as there was for Faith, "good good, buddys and I are going on a trip..." as he drones on I just turn my mind off for a moment, take a glance over at Faith, wow she's pretty, annnddd back to nitwit, "and we'll be driving lots and it's fuckin cold but it'll be good" he finishes out his sentence seeing absolutely nothing, this kid is absolutely oblivious. "Well that sounds like fun then, when are you leaving?" I ask, attempting to show any sort of interest that I can muster up for it, "oh day after tomorrow, when Faith is working" he says, well isn't that my favourite? He's leaving, and for who knows how long, this could get very interesting.. "well that sounds pretty sweet, don't worry, I'll keep her company while you're gone if she wants it" I laugh and tilt my head over to where she's sitting, catching her eyes I see a small smile start to form before she turns away, "yeah that wouldn't be bad, would you mind if we had like, a girls day?" she asks him, in the sweetest voice anyone's probably ever heard in their life, "yeah I don't fuckin care do what you want" he replies in a heavy tone, you can tell that one either struck a nerve or he just really doesn't care, well sucks for him, at least I know I can take care of his lady better than he can. "Oooh sweet! That'll be bomb" I get in quick before the tension starts to rise, she looks over at me and doesn't bother responding to him, clearly annoyed that he even said something that belligerent in front of everyone in the office. He quickly gets up and is out of the office in the blink of an eye, slamming the door behind him, as always, he has no decency for the feelings of other people, a slammed door could easily trigger a range of emotions from several different people, myself being one of them. "Well that's fun isn't it?" Faith sighs, visibly uncomfortable with the whole situation, "oh absolutely, a blast" I snort, rolling my eyes over towards Faith, checking to see if she's alright, you can clearly see the discomfort she holds from the situation, her posture immediately slouched, you could see her eyes tearing up, fuck, all I want to do is hold her, this is awful, Brady is a real dick, she definitely doesn't deserve this kind of treatment, this is hard to watch. He comes back in, very clearly angry, and sits down on his phone, well that's eventful, here goes a conversation starter, "so uh-." And cut off instantly, thank god, moms so much better at starting a conversation, and isn't as awkward about it too, "so how's the weather looking out there? Is it shitty or shitty?" she laughs loudly as if to rattle the silence out of the room, "I mean either or, it's plain shitty" Faith replies quickly to help the situation a bit, "well that sucks now doesn't it?" Mom says with a goofy laugh to lighten the room, whew, that was a lot better than what I could've done, I laugh along and just observe the energy in the room, at this point Faith gets up and shuffles to the chair beside me, definitely causing Brady to raise a brow, but apparently it wasn't enough to cause stress, as he's back in his phone. "Let's play some dice" Faith says, tapping my foot with her boot, and looking at mom, "alright why not" mom says pulling the dice out of her bag from behind her, "annnddd I'm outta here, see ya later" Brady exclaims grumpily, leaving the office in mere seconds, "fuck em" Faith shrugs and tosses a die on the desk, landing on a three, I grab one for myself and do the same, and it lands on a three as well, so mom grabs hers and rolls it in her special little way, and gets a two! Hah, look at that, "roll off here we go!" Mom says looking at us, we pick each die up again and toss them at the same time, mine lands on a one, of course, and as it comes to a spinning stop, Faith rolls a six! "Whoohoo! Look at that fancy roll, who woulda known" she whoops excitedly, rolling all six dice she starts the game, as it goes on we all get on the board, and start moving up slowly, with the occasional "bullshit!" and "fuck that was bad" coming from each other throughout the rolls.