Chapter 6

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Chapter 6

Ryder

     I don’t know what I’m doing.  I can’t believe that I just agreed to be his assistant.  Do I want him back in my life?  Yes my heart answers before my head can talk me out of it.  He said he wouldn’t ask about my past so I hope he doesn’t.  I need to do something I can’t keep standing here.  He is way to close and I’m afraid that if I don’t move I will grab him and kiss him right here. 

   So many nights I’ve dreamed of his lips being all over my body making me scream out orgasm after orgasm.  I feel a wetness forming between my legs.  I squeeze them together as I watch his eyes gaze up and down my body.  I feel like he can see right through my clothes. 

    I clear my throat as I take a step back.  “So where’s my desk?”  I ask breaking up the tension that has built up in the room. 

   Hayes snaps back to reality as he answers me, “Awe yes let me show you.” 

    I follow him to the door watching his ass the whole way.  All I can think about is his hands all over my body.  My mind is all over the place as I feel myself smack into the back of Hayes.  Oh my god I’m so embarrassed.  I hear a chuckle escape his mouth as he opens the door not saying a word.

    I’m so glad he just kept on walking.  I make sure to pace myself far enough behind him that I don’t run into him again.  My desk area is to the right of the door when you step out.  I have a rather large area out here.  It’s quiet since his office and my desk and the only ones down this hall.  I know there has to be other areas because it was very loud and busy before I came down this rather long hallway.

    I look around taking it all in.  To the right of my desk are a row of windows overlooking the city and it’s beautiful.  I turn to look at him before I ask, “How come your office is the only one back here?  I feel like we’re in another world back here.”

    “My father like the quiet and in all honesty I do too.  If I didn’t get a choice on taking over at least I got to a choice in where my office would be.  I choose to keep it back here.  I like being away from the rest of the office.  It’s so busy and noisy out there…”  He shakes his head as he stares out the window not finishing his thoughts.  I see a sadness come across his eyes making me want to ask him about it but I don’t.  I keep my mouth shut not saying anything.  Really I’m not sure what to say.  I use to know but I never told him everything like my feelings I have for him.  Instead I keep them locked up down in the bottom of my heart.  Like my father use to say I’m not good enough no one will ever love me. 

     I move over towards my desk sitting my purse down as I rummage through the drawers.  I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing but I might as well try to look busy.  Hayes pulls himself away from the window heading for the hall.  “I have a meeting and then I’m flying out this afternoon.  I have to go back to Michigan to finish up a few things before my move down here.  I’ve put a folder on top of your desk with some things I would like you to take care of before I return on Friday.”  He turns to look at me as I watch a smile form on his face while he says, “Ryder part of being my assistant is accompanying me to any business dinners or functions.  There are a lot of functions I have to attend with this business and you will be by my side.  Don’t worry we will fully stock your closet with clothes for all the occasions.” 

     I watch him turn and walk away before I can object.  Since when do assistants go with their boss to business dinners? I’m going to have to talk to him about that before he leaves, even though part of me is excited more time I get to spend with him.  What am I thinking my life is way too complicated I can’t let him get to close to me. 

    I open the folder on my desk as I sit down.  I guess I really don’t have a choice but to get started.  I don’t know how I’m ever going to get any work done I can barely concentrate with his lingering scent in the air.  I jump in and before I know it I’ve worked past lunch time.  It’s almost 3:00 when Hayes makes his way back down the hall.  He doesn’t say a word to me as he storms by slamming his door on the way in.  I wonder what’s wrong with him.  Part of me wants to rush in there and ask him but I’m not sure how he would feel about that.  I get the feeling that Hayes hasn’t gotten over the fact that I left so long ago. 

    I decide I need a break so I push away from my desk and make my way down the hall.  When I open the door at the end it’s like a different world out here.  There are people everywhere running around frantic.  I’m not sure where to go so I turn right figuring there has to be a bathroom and employee lounge somewhere down here.  It’s so busy out here people don’t even notice me.  Finally one of the doors says employee lounge; I open the door to an empty room.  Thank god I spot a bathroom on the other side.  I rush over to need to go. 

    Once I’m done in the bathroom I look around the lounge taking it all in.  It’s stocked full of food and drinks.  I’m so thirsty and starving I’m tempted to take something but don’t want to get in trouble.  I move away from the counter as the door opens.  I feel the air change in the room as Hayes body fills the door way.  “There you are I was looking for you what are you doing?”  His voice is clipped and short with me taking me by surprise.

    I stutter to get my answer out to him.  “I had to go to the bathroom.  I’m sorry.”  I say as I try to move past him to get to the door but he blocks my path instead stopping me. 

    His expression softens as he looks at me.  “No Ryder I’m sorry.  It’s just I need to leave soon but we need to talk some business stuff first.”  He moves his body closer to mine snaking his arm around my waist.   “I have a lot of stress right now and it’s not fair for me to take it out on you.  I should have showed you around earlier and for that I’m sorry.  This lounge is fully stocked and you can help yourself to anything.”  His thumb grazes across my cheek before his fingers slide up into my hair angling my head towards his.  His lips are so close to mine I can feel his breathe on me.  My insides are on fire as I wish for him to kiss me.

    As the handle starts to turn on the door he drops his hand out of my hair backing away from me.  I’m left there standing breathlessly as he heads out the door.  I glance up as a blonde girl bounces in through the door.  I see the way she looked at him as if he was candy and she was going to eat him up.  I want to kill her.  I give her a fake smile as I head to the door to leave the lounge. 

    I walk back down the hall towards my office.  I feel so out of place here but I really need the job plus if he does double my salary then I can get Madame Sapphire paid off faster.  I walk past my desk and into his open office door.  He’s drinking a scotch as he stares out the window.  I wonder when he became a scotch drinker I think.  I clear my throat so he knows I’m in there.

    Hayes doesn’t even turn around as he talks to me.  “My flight gets back Friday morning and there is a benefit in San Francisco Saturday night.  I need you to be ready to go when I get back to the office we will be flying out that afternoon.”

   I’m stunned and don’t know what to say all I can think of is shit I know Madame is going to want me to work this weekend what am I going to do.  “When will we be back?”  I ask my voice is more frantic then I want it to be causing him to turn around. 

    He stalks toward me looking kind of angry.  “What does it matter?  Coming with me is part of the job.  We will be there all weekend so if you had any plans cancel them.”  He walks away towards his desk sitting his glass down. 

   I can’t help the next sentence that comes out of my mouth.  “Why don’t you take your girlfriend with you to these things?”

    His eyes are angry as he turns around and bites out, “I don’t have one.”  He grabs his briefcase whipping past me as he walks out the door and down the hall.  Once I hear the hall door close again I let out the breath I had been holding.  I don’t know what I was thinking taking this job I’m not sure I’m going to be able to survive this. 

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