My stories in real life

I think I'm breaking my family....

first i fight with my parents.

then i get my phone taken away.

my parents are saying i should be more like my 7 year old brother and that doing my best just isn't enough for them.

I know i was not planned but i want to feel fucking loved too you know! I'm breaking apart!

I'm crying myself to sleep, i want to cut myself and my parents just don't see that instead of criticizing me they should be supporting me so i actually get more confidence to do better instead of getting more and more stressed about wanting them to just be 100% proud of me for just ONE day without finding a single thing about me to complain about. I-Is it too much to ask!?

Am I that big of a mistake!? Do I really mean so little!? My dad just left and I don't even know if he's ever coming back and now i feel like my mom hates me and everything bad that's going on right now is because of ME! I'm scared and i don't know what to do.

if they thought this would help me focus in school then they were so so wrong because now all i'm gonna think about is how i'm messing everything up! I'm crying while writing this because I really don't know what I should do, there's so much pressure on me and 'm only 13! I'm scared! I don't know if I'll be able to cope with it any longer, I've already thought about running away to my boyfriend's house, running somewhere else, or just ending my life completely. I just feel so broken right now, what should i do!?