To the beginning ©

I've been in love with someone for so long that I feel like I just wasted it.

I wasted my life and wasted what little I could love. I wasted what little romance I could give and wasted all my tears.

Because I'm dry, I can't cry anymore.

I will not give you a smile, nor will I ever dedicate an 'I love you' to you again. Because I will stop feeling it, I will stop suffering.

I won't see you again, I promise.

Because while you sleep and put on that precious angelic expression and force a last sigh in love, I kiss your forehead and caress your red hair.

It is a farewell, although I knew perfectly well that from the beginning it had to be that way.

. . .

Shiota Nagisa is a famous pianist and singer-songwriter who has never shown his face. In show business he is known as "Mokuren" for the magnolia shaped hair clip that he always carries with him.

Behind the scenes, he is a boy known for his enviable cuteness and feminine complexion. A seemingly normal boy who is studying psychology for his tremendous curiosity to study the behavior and mental processes of people.

Inspired by one of his fans, "Mokuren" decided to make a small 'blog' telling about his day to day and some of his experiences, especially what he feels in love with his best friend and roommate him, Akabane Karma.