In too deep

#2 a new begining?

november.16

Azaila*

"what happened to her, is she okay?"
"i'm sorry to say but your mother is dead Azaila. she was in a car accident and her and her boyfriend didn't make it. this happened not to long ago when you were about to start classes, your social worker called our brother and got things taken care of. "

i couldn't control my emotions in this moment because i believe the Mr. fancy pants of a man beside me noticed my smile.

quickly covering it up.

"oh okay then where will i be staying? i don't really want to be sent to an orphanage."
" sweetie you will be moving in with you father."

Again not being able to cover my emotions i smile. not just one to convince your teachers 'mommy's not hitting you at home' but an actual smile i think my teeth even came out.

"wait really?"

i think she thought i meant that in a bad way because her facial expression changes into a more sad look than before.

"yes Azaila you will be moving in with your dad. would that be a problem?"
"no, no ma'am. "

shaking my head back and forth i remember our little friend that's still here.

"Mrs. Blake who is this gentleman beside me?"
"oh yes, Azaila this is your oldest brother Giovanni."

turning in my seat to my my right, i come face to face with my 'brother'.
controlling my emotions and putting my daily mask back on.

" hello, Giovanni i am Azaila, but i'm guessing since your in your very early 20's and guessing we have the same dad you already new that, but don't remember me."

he seems amused? interested?
idk i couldn't place it.

slowly extending his hand.
"hello, yes i believe you are right Azaila. Oh and we have the same dad."

" well that's good to know. so how many more siblings do i happen to have?"
"counting me?"
"yes counting you last i checked you were my brother."
"okay then 5. you have 5 siblings Azaila."
"5!"

damn i have 5 siblings. That's insane from going from a house with a mother and the occasional fuck Buddy to house with 6 other people. This ah going to be interesting to say the least.

"welp i may say this is a amazing conversation but i really need to get Azaila home. Do you have anything that i need to sign?"
"ah yes thank you Mr. De'Luca. If you could sign these sheets i believe that will be all."

stunned on what's going on i have yet to ask where exactly 'home' is.
Giovanni has an ascent, maybe french? italian? i'm not quite sure yet.

"hate to interrupt but i have a question if i may."
"yes?"
Giovanni turns towards me.

"where exactly is 'home' because you don't sound like your from around here."
"oh that's because i'm not. Home, is in Italy Azaila."

ITALY
ITALY
ITALY

i would have to leave my friends.
i would have to say goodbye
i would have to leave them behind?!

"do you think that it would be okay if i got tell my friends bye and pack my things from my old house before we go?"
"yeah just don't take long."

i basically run out the run chasing to find my friends before the lunch bell rings.

i see Axel on top of Lee being his normal annoying self. disappointed at what my life will become. i make my way over to our table. The canteen is basically empty just a few random kids getting there things.

"Hey, um guys can we talk real quick?"
i hope they catch on to the fact that i'm being serious.

"Hey Zail we were about to look for you.
you good?"
"Oh yeah kitty i'm fine i just need to talk to you guys."

"go on A your scaring me."
"so um my mum died today."
"Holy shit Azaila are you okay?"
"yeah thanks Axel, but um that's not the bad news i have for you."

fighting back the overwhelming crushing feeling i have.

"I am um...i am moving in with my brothers and with my dad."

i look down, my shoes are my top priority at the moment. when i feel big huge arms wrap around my shoulders.

"Holy shit Lee are you hugging someone?"
"Fuck off kat there's obviously more to her story."

Lee backs way from me allowing me to continue.

"Oh yeah so some they don't actually live in Blackpool."
"okay we're do they live it's okay if you move no one can tear us apart zails"
"ha, thanks kitty...but um they live 1,407milesawayinRome!!"
"i'm sorry where?"
"kitty they live in Rome. i am moving over 1,000 miles away from you for fucks sake."
"Holy shit don't lose your cool.It's okay we can visit and you can always come down here. Or um we um could face-time all the time. its not like your moving to America."
"yeah yeah totally we cou-"
"Azaila we have to go get your things from your house we have a plane to catch. "

i turn to see my oldest brother standing my the entrance to the canteen.

"yeah sorry Giovanni i'm coming."

turning my head back to my friends i can clearly see disappointment on their faces.

"hey now guys like kitty said we still have each other and we can figure this out. i'll be 18 in a few months and i could move back or something."

"I'm sorry Azaila but we need to leave now."
" i'm coming, i'm coming."

i'm starting to get pissed off at Giovanni he needs to shut up i'm trying to talk to my friends and say goodbye. but i think they picked up in that.

"hey now zail don't get sassy, we will see you again."
"yeah your right Ax, thanks guys i love you."

i give kitty and axel hugs and turn to walk out with my new found brother when i feel a hand grab my forearm.

"Zail i know don't say this often or do this but I... i love you okay. Be careful you never know what those italian weirdos will do you to you."
"i love you too-
'i reach my hand to his face and wipe away the tear that's about to fall'
and i promise that i will never forget you guys."

walking backwards towards my new future. i yell to my friends.

"by guys i love you. kitty take it easy on Axel he's just a baby, Axel don't try to start anything with Lee, and Lee get out more. Live a little we are only teenagers for a little while longer."

turning away from the only family i've had since i was a child. i walk out of the door of my school saying goodbye to the people i love and the only place that i haven't hated.

if only she new what was in store for her in her near future.