My Firsts

Part 1

I don't like walking down corridors at school. Especially on my own. I just feel as though everyone is staring at me, like these monsters are out to get me. I'm on my own right now, just me and my little blue backpack, with the little keychains dangling. There aren't really bullies here, but a few girls that can be stuck up and arrogant towards people that look like they are different, but really, everyone is the same. We all have bones; especially Dane, the questionable guy who sits at the back in math class. The only math he does is working out the length of it.

Anyways, I'm meeting Matthew and Miley at my locker in around 1.32 seconds... 1.30 now. My locker is basic. Like the basic bitch i am. Sucks to be you. " Heyyy Ethan lover!" Matthew shouted. OMG!! I wish he wouldn't do stuff like that. " Shut up!! I do not like him. Gross!" I lied. He's so hot. But i would never get a chance with him. I would be kidding myself if i ever thought i would. Matthew was staring behind me. " Um, what are you looking at?" I didn't want to turn around. I had a feeling it would be someone or something ba- "Gross huh?" I was shocked. Oh shit. He heard me. He was stood there this whole stupid time. I went bright red, and turned around. " Oh uh... hi?" I'm so embarrassed. I wanted to disappear and change my whole appearance and name and everything. " I shall keep that in mind" He smirked. I just stood there. WHAT WAS I DOING. Omg i hate myself. The way he walked away, and just everything about him... HOT! " So, uhh..." " Don't even say it." I snapped to Miley. I was in such a mood all of a sudden. Like i wanted to burst into flames and scream. I stormed off and went to class. " Hey,ou okay?" Wait why was Amelia talking to me? She's like one of the 'popular' ones. Nobody like her usually spoke to me. "Yeah I'm good thanks, just not feeling it right now." I did an awkward giggle, and she did it back. I felt like we could become friends, even though she probably wouldn't want to become friends with someone like me.

" Sup mardy arse" Matthew joked with me. But i wasn't up for jokes. I laughed anyways. " Yeah very funny. I'm just not feeling it. I don't feel very well to be honest." "So i guess you don't want a little chocolate bunny?" He held one up to me. How could i resist chocolate? Laughing, I took it. You know, for me, i can't really be in a mood with my best mates for long.

Walking home, and it is really quite warm. The sun is blazing down on my head. I couldn't find my hat this morning, it's probably in my wardrobe. I'm near home now. Sometimes it's just nice to take some time to yourself. Even if it's a little walk in the sun or the rain or snow! You should be proud of yourself. Like if you got a shower today, if you ate today, if you drank some water today or whatever it is, be proud. I'm proud of you.