Lovesick (Snape x Reader)

My love

OK THIS WILL EXPLAIN SOME OF SEV'S BACKSTORY, IT GETS EMOTIONAL SO BE WARNED

Y/ns P.O.V.

He sat back down again 'They will obviously notice if I'm gone as I am supposed to be teaching them' said Sev kissing my hand gently 'I will come back y/n just stay here and get some rest, do you want me to show you how to work the shower, or the bath if you'd prefer my love' I snuggled further down into his bed as he picked a black T-shirt out of his large oak wardrobe, he handed it to me and I pulled it over my head, breathing in his familiar scent. 'No its okay Sev I think I'm just- going to go back to sleep' I yawned. He smiled and planted a kiss on my forehead, he buttoned up a fresh shirt and a new pair of dress trousers.

I picked up his belt and threw it at him, he wasn't expecting this and it hit him in the chest. He laughed and disappeared off to the bathroom, he came back looking completely ordinary. As if what just happened had never happened, had it happened? It didn't feel real, I just lost my virginity. I smiled at Severus and he raised an eyebrow 'What are you grinning at, have I got something on my face' he said brushing his face, self-consciously 'No Sev your just-' I needed to find the words to tell this man how I felt 'Your just- ugh I love you' he smirked at my fumble for words 'I love you too' 

He left the room picking up his cloak as he went. I wrapped my arms around his pillow and imagined his strong arms around my waist. I fell into an easy sleep, deep and peaceful.

I thought I heard the door open at one point but I was too tired to see what it was. Opening my eyes a few hours later I could see through the small window high on the wall near the ceiling, there was a small gap in Sev's black curtains and I could see a moonlit sky and lots of twinkling stars.

I sat up rubbing my eyes and saw another note written in his sweet messy handwriting on the dresser. On top of it was a warm cup of tea, just the right temperature to drink. I read his note 'Y/n. I have gone to the feast, I made your excuses to Minerva and Draco. I will bring you back some food. I came by to check on you but you were fast asleep' 'so that's what the door noise was' I thought. I continued to read 'Stay here until I get back. Love S.S.'

I caressed his note running my hands over the word 'Love' I smiled to myself and finished my tea. Just as I was about to take it through to the small kitchen I had seen on my way in, Severus entered the room. He took the empty mug out of my hand and handed me a plate, it was chicken and mash 'Severus! My favourite, how did you know!?' I asked sitting down as he handed me a knife and fork, he smiled 'Oh its as if I haven't taught you for the best part of six years and you eat this every other day' I pushed him gently at the sarcastic tone in his voice 'Do you want another cup of tea my love?' he asked. I had a mouth full of mash potatoes and I wasn't about to answer him like that.

He tried not to laugh as I desperately tried to swallow the food. 'mmm no thanks Sev, do you have any pumpkin juice?' he thought for a second 'I might, I don't really like the stuff' and he disappeared off to the kitchen returning a minute later with a small bottle. 'So, what will you be doing for Christmas my love' he asked pouring me a goblet 'Probably going to stay with Remus again' I sighed. He stopped 'Remus Lupin?' he asked 'Yes, I don't like him much though, and I don't think he likes me' Severus raised an eyebrow again, he really did do that a lot didn't he 'Yes I can see why, love' there was a moment of silence before I asked 'Was he your teacher at school Sev' he laughed at this 'Well, I'm flattered you think I'm that young but no, I went to school with him and your father, I didn't like them and they didn't like me' he sighed 

I looked at his tired face 'I don't like my dad, he went off and did something. I don't even know what and got thrown in Azkaban when I was young, what about your parents Sev?' he went tense, this clearly wasn't the right thing to ask 'You don't have to sa-' I started quickly but he cut me off

'There's not much to them, I hate them both' his voice cracked the slightest bit but he continued 'My mother, Eileen Prince, was foolish. She just wanted to be loved so she ran off with a man names Tobias Snape, obviously my father. He- uh he thought he could beat the magic out of me' at this point he buried his face in his hands desperately trying to hold back tears.

I hugged him and I felt his body shake with silent sobs 'He tried to stop me from coming to Hogwarts but I got here eventually, I wasn't much happier here either' I kissed him and moved his hands from his face. 

Tear tracks ran down his face and he pulled me close 'And- and Albus wants- wants me to kill him at the end of this year, I'm a d- death eater y/n' I looked straight into his eyes and said 'No your not, I saw your mark earlier but your not like them' more tears appeared in his eyes 'I'm a double agent yes but I- I wasn't always. I was one of them y/n, I was one of them' I held his face in my hands 'Your not now, why does Dumbledore need you to kill him Sev?' he wiped his eyes with the back of his hand 'D- Draco told you of his mission am I correct' I nodded

'To protect Draco's soul I- I have to do it but no one cares about m- my soul' he broke down completely, tears streaming as I wiped them away one by one. 'I care Severus, your my everything' he looked at me 'But why, why do you care. I'm not a good person'

'Yes you are, your my Sev and we can do this together' he pulled me even closer so I was lying on his chest. We lay like that for a while, his sobs ceased and his breathing eased. I realised he'd fallen asleep so I picked up my plate and goblet and washed them up in his tiny sink before removing his cloak from around his shoulders and climbing into bed beside him.

I lay awake for a few hours thinking about what he had said. I needed to protect the one I loved from harm and I swore to myself that I'd always be here for him

Hey guys sorry for the wait, next chapter might be tomorrow or today it depends how much I get done in terms of school work, I hope you enjoyed this. I feel really bad for Sev after writing this but anyway. Happy reading