Yarichin Bitch Club

8

" Tooru-san...? " I called while knocking on his dorm's room door.

How did I know where he stays? I asked the students desperately. I even crossed tamura and I'm surprised he knew tooru and even called him jimi.

In japanese jimi means plain and simple. That's a dumb nickname but ok.

I shrugged my useless thoughts and successfully picked tooru's door lock. I closed it behind me and look around. Everything is lifeless.

I heared glass shattering from the bathroom and my eyes widened. I immediately dashed there banging the bathrooms door loudly. I saw the shattered mirror on the floor beside a sobbing tooru. I frowned and lifted his face with my index finger. His eyes widened upon seeing me. I wiped his tears away but it's endless. I patiently wiped his endless tears and waited for him to stop crying. His clothes were wet. If he wouldn't change he would catch a cold.

" M/n.... " He murmur and leaned on my palm. His eyes were now closed and his face softens. I hmm'ed and continue to wipe his tears. More streamed down but I ignore it. I stared down on his hands. His left wrist is bleeding badly. My eyes widened.

" Tooru... " I called out softly. He opens his eyes and stared on my face.

" I-It's ok if you need to leave now... I-i "

" Let's change your wet clothes ok? " I said immediately. He was shock for a second before nodding. I helped him stand up and lead him towards the sink first. He was confused at first but when I lifted his injured wrist he stiffened. I carefully washed the blood. There's still a blood on it but he's whimpering whenever the water hits his fresh wound. I stopped and I helped him on his bed. I walked towards his closet and took a green t-shirt that comes to my sight first. A boxer and underwear.

I walk back on tooru and tossed his clothes on the bed. I undo the button of his wet shirt and placed it on the ground. I undo his pants and underwear too. I took the towel hanging on this study chair and started drying his hair first. He leaned on my touch.

I sigh as I move to his chest.

" Are you ok? " I ask as I dried his body. He just look away with a faint blush. I frowned and continue drying him. I came into his lower region.

" Is it fine or you want to do it on your own? " I ask gently. He shooks his head.

" P-please just do what you need to do so you can do your important things than taking care of me. " He mumbled. I frowned again while looking down.

' Tooru is important. He is.... Important. '

I dried his dick and balls not noticing his whimpers. I move down to his thighs and legs.

I stand up and place the towel back on his chair. I started to dress him.

His dorm is so messy.

I put on his underwear and boxer.

" Do you have a first aid kit? " I ask as I took a sit beside him. He shooks his head as a no while leaning on the head board. I sigh and took his left wrist.

If I would go to my dorm it was quite far...

The other students still have classes. While me and tooru skip our classes after our little break.

" W-what are you doing? " He asks startled. He started pulling his hand from me but failed.

" The question is what the hell are you doing to yourself?. " I grumbled and he only look away. I sigh and kissed his now bleeding wound again.

" H-hey!- a-ahh M-M/n-k-ah "

I run my tongue on the side of his open wound because it would be a pain if I directly thrust my tongue inside. And the sensation will calm him. I sucked it's blood softly and coated it with my saliva.

I let go of his wrist softly with drool dripping on my chin. Tho I didn't notice it.

" W-Why would you do that?! " Tooru asks embarrassed.

" There's a molecule in your saliva that heal wounds. The cell-growing power of histatin 1 is one reason mouth wounds heal so quickly. You don't have a medical kit so.... Did I made you uncomfortable?. I'm s- "

" I-It's fine. I-i l-like it. " He said blushing slightly. I nod and made him lay down.

" Are you going now? " He asks and I shook my head laying down beside him. I placed the blanket above us.

" I'm staying until you're okay. " I said softly and layed on my side to face him. He gave me a sloppy smile.

" You'll have to wait a thousand of years then. " He jokingly said while giggling. I look at his happy face seriously.

" I will. Wait. " I said clearly. His eyes flung open. He stared at me as silence envelope us.

" If that means I'll hear and see you like that again. I'll wait. " I added implying to him joking earlier with a carefree emotion. I look through his eyes as I admired his surprised expression. His eyes watered. He brought his palms towards his eyes and his shoulders shook.

" P-please don't look at me like that again.... I don't have another heart to lose. " He mumbled between his broken whimpers. I frowned. I'm really bad at making people felt loved. Is this why I don't receive any love before?.

" I'm sorry you need to fall in love with me. I-i- "

" I-it's fine. I-i know i-im not t-the o-only one w-who l-love you, y-you might be confused s-s-so I-i don't m-mind s-sharing y-you w-with others... A-as long a-as y-you s-stay b-by my s-side. M-making me k-know that you're h-here and love me. I-It's fine. B-because I love you... "

My eyes widened. Is this how akemi and itome's relationship work?.

Am I like akemi now?

If I agreed, am I taking advantage of the boy's kind heart?

If I said no... I would be breaking his heart.

Do I love him?

Why can't I just fucking say I love him?...!

Am I afraid to lie to this fragile boy?

Wait- Lie?!... T-that means I don't really love him....

But whenever I thought of it....

Why it hurts?

It hurts....

Do I love him?

.......

Maybe yes.

Maybe no.

But I'm sure I wanted him to feel loved.