Why him? Killua x fem gon

Again your with him

Killua's POV
I woke up from a ray of sun going through the window I was on the couch well STILL on the couch  I decided to get up and I saw gon coming down "KILLUAA" she said running to me she hugged me "what's wrong" I said quietly "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry killua I didn't mean to make you feel bad" she said I felt nothing I really didn't care if she apologized to me because she will do it again "well it's not like you care"I said pushing her off me "...killua I-I""shut up already you don't know how it feels to be like that you really think a simple hug and apology will fix everything...well your wrong" I said looking at her with cold eyes she then put a mad face "well I was just saying sorry ya know I think YOU DONT KNOW what it feels like making someone feel bad I'm just being nice and apologizing what do you want from me to stay in crying in agony because I did something wrong" gon said sternly I stop what I was doing and looked down "......actually...I do know how it feels like...when we were fighting pitou you said mean things to me I get it you were mad even though you were I never left your side I regretted leaving for help thinking that I couldn't do anything putting you in danger not stoping you from L.T.E.R.A.L.L.Y DYING and worrying you because I was with my freaking deadly family I suffered more then you gon stop acting like you did things that made you quit ya know I almost died in tracks of trains to just make you happy ...but you came in rescued me I was tortured with chains I was barely 6 I was depressed from you telling me that those words...those words. We're I lie you told me I didn't care you told me I was easy you told me I was your only friend but deep down I was scared I was angry I was caring, kite was a good person why wouldn't I care for him I was in pain for you cause your the person I care for...gon...but I guess you can't see that"I said about to cry "well I guess I can't bastard I tried to apologize but no you don't care I'll go to isaki maybe he's a better friend then you" gon said heading out "gon WAIT" I said I was to late .....she hates me now she hates me for real what have I done just so she can know how I feel made it worse I should've kept my mouth shut.
Gon's POV
What is wrong with him I was just apologizing I thought I then saw isaki "hey isaki" I said hugging him "oh hey gon where's Killua he's always with you" isaki said "well...we got into a fight a- "really were is that bastard I'm gonna give hi- "NO don't just don't we got into a fight but I don't want him dead" I said but deep down I knew killua was stronger then him killua meant everything to me even though we were mad at each other I wouldn't be the same if I never met killua and I don't know what I would do if killua died his beautiful blue eyes his soft hair his silky skin his nice words and his cute faces I couldn't say it I had to admit it killua was so handsome "um ok then what do ya need" isaki said "can we hang out" I said smiling "oh ok"he said we went to games and arcades we ate and we did a bunch of things tho it never felt the same as when I had fun with Killua it felt more fun when it was Killua spending time with me maybe I was mad for no reason no actually I'm mad for a reason I shrugged it off and walked with isaki "gon do you think Killua might of like you so he can act like that" isaki said this made my face burn up I blushed but why and I felt happy for some reason "well wh-what ma-makes you t-think that" I said blushing "well cause he looked jealous and he left maybe cause you forgot about him he probably felt like a third wheel" isaki said I thought for a minute he was right he maybe did felt like that but Killua Took it to far.
Killua's POV
I was more heartbroken then I was yesterday I decided to walk a little on my way I found a homeless person getting dropped and hit I ran to him and hit the people who were hitting the poor guy "hey stop that scumbags  do you wanna get a death wish" I said spilling out deadly aura the people got scared and ran away I then looked at the poor guy "um sir are you ok are you hurt badly"  I said the man smiled at me "no I'm ok young man thank you for saving me I'm just on the edge of money right now and it's hard to keep up my last bill was rubbed by those guys the only thing I can do is play with this but I'm not that good" the old man said I felt guilty I know I don't have a warm heart for old people but he reminded me of my grandfather he was really not doing well but thankfully my dad helped him his doing ok I got out my wallet and gave the man a 100 dollar bill "here don't worry about it" I said the old man shook his head "no son you keep it I don't mean to bargain" the old man said "no keep it you need it more oh wait here" I said going to a store I bought the most coziest jacket for him and I bought a hat for him I got out the store "here put this on now you don't have to be cold you don't have to thank me" I said the old man cried a little "thank you young man I really am grateful is there anything I can do for you" the old man said putting the jacket on "no no need but can I play the violin" I said pointing at the instrument "oh yes pls try" he said I smiled and stood up beside him "I'll play to help with the money" I said I then started playing I was moving to rhythm and beat and people kept coming filling the box I was playing until the box was full and there was already a lot of people surrounding us everybody cheered and clapped I then saw her I saw gon I needed to Focus so I looked away and played and I then finished the song and everybody clapt I then went down to the man "here I hope this helps"