Why him? Killua x fem gon

You dont want me

Killua's POV
I woke up in gon's arms I looked at her "princess.....I'm sorry" I said she really had to hug me didn't she I couldn't move I felt mad at myself for hugging her she probably didn't like it I got up and went out the door I then went to the kitchen and grabbed some bread and cheese I wasn't really hungry so I ate a simple grilled cheese I then felt arms around me from the back I looked back it was gon "good morning Killua what are you doing" she said I turned to her now she was on my chest I picked up her chin and got close "your suppose to be in bed....I'm making a grill cheese" I said letting her go I then got out of her grip and went to get the toast
Gon's POV
I looked at Killua why was he mad I got to the fridge and got some milk and went to the cabinet to get cookies I then sat with him down "Killua what's wrong did I d- I got caught off my my phone ringing it was isaki "um hello" I said "hey gon let's hang out today" he said "ok let's me get dressed" I said and hung up "who was that" Killua said quietly "it was isaki" I said he then clutched his fist "why him why does it always have to be him why him" killua said looking at me mad "what do you mean" I said mad "you always going to him what about me am I not your friend anymore you barely even hang out with me since I got here don't you want me don't you want me to be here"he said looking at me getting up "your getting mad for no reason Killua" I said looking down Killua then burst out of the kitchen to a guest room that was there and pushed the door closed how couldn't I realize that he was my friend and other then that if he wasn't he would've slept in that room not in mine I heard cursing quietly and a cracking voice I didn't care anymore it's him suffering for no reason maybe we aren't friends I then got up and went to my room and got changed I was now out the door maybe isaki will be a better friend.
Killua's POV
I went in a guess room and shut the door I cried silently and cursed under my breath my voice was cracking up I couldn't handle my emotions anymore I heard gon going to her room then coming out the next thing I new she was out the door I then banged my head back at the door and looked forward was it really right to come did I make a right choice should I go back gon doesn't even stay with me was kite right even though we were far we were still friends gon doesn't even hang out with me anymore she ignores me sometimes I was tired of feeling like this I walked out and went to gon's room and packed my stuff cause who knows maybe later I'll leave I then headed out while I was walking I though how gon wouldn't be with me anymore it broke my heart why him why always him what's so special about him why not me why.......not me I said she only likes me for gifts cause that's the nicest thing I did when I came we are mad a minute and happy another I then stoped at a shop I groaned guess I'll have to buy another gift I went in the store and found that it was a rose shop and chocolate shop I went in and bought the prettiest roses I could find and like my dumb stupid brain they were literally right in front of me I then went to get the chocolate and payed the cashier after that I went to a cafe and ordered something this was the cafe me and gon go to well use to go to she always got to sit next to me which made me happy I then went to a park that me and gon went to it had beautiful pink blossom trees I remember me and gon here feeding each other ice cream under a very large blossom tree and I remember that right here is where I told her I care about her I started crying tears but they weren't noticeable I sniffed and went to sit on a bench maybe I should text her I texted here "hi gon" I waited but she never responded after a minute I got a text I looked "what do you want" "can you forgive me" I texted "why should I do that" she texted "I'm sorry I-I just got....jealous" I texted there was no response .....no response...no response I decided to call her the phone was ringing and ringing and call ended I called her again "what do you want" she said sternly "pls forgi- "no killua I tried forgiving you but you just slashed that away many times" she said coldly "gon....did you even want me to be here I came here for you not anything else to make you happy cause I missed you don't you want me" I said ".........shut up killua" she said "..gon..you don't want me.....I can leave if that's what you want and you can be happy with isaki" I said trying not to cry ".....I never told you to come......so yeah..I guess I don't want you" she said and hung up I was there broken even more did she really meant that "you don't want me"I said smiling weakly I started crying and ran out of the park and ran until I stoped in the most sad scene isaki was with gon laughing and she was laughing with him isaki then looked at me and smirked he then pulled gon to him and.........