Why him? Killua x fem gon

Im sorry.....

Gon's POV
I read the note and my eyes became watery I then ran out the house and went to find Killua were ever he is
The note
Dear gon
The first time I met you was when we were in the hunter exam you looked really sweet and had a determined face you made my heart bigger you changed my life I never had friends I only followed you for age but later in those 15 days with you in the exam you changed my mind set you showed what love is like you showed me what it feels to love and be heart broken you showed me how to thank and most importantly how to have a friend I was so selfish I wanted you all to my self I wanted to be your only friend cause I loved you I had feelings for you I was so into you I didn't even know that I was followed by after you saved me from my family I fell deeply in love with you but after kite died that love was fading away little by little you weren't the bright gon I used to know you weren't the gon that would cheer me up and that hurt me seeing you sad I was the one who was supposed to be sad I had more pain but I failed I failed on making you happy you were like a sister to me after I saw you in that moment going slow motion you died in front of me and I wanted to die for not saving you you broke my heart when you said those words I wanted to cry right there but I didn't want to and I was the one getting stabbed so you didn't have to feel half the pain I felt ,I let my family chain me up and hit me so you didn't have to be chained up when I saw your burned arm I fell in tears I did everything to save you I even had to risk my sister just to save you cause I love you gon I love you with all my heart I might be an assassin an ex assassin but it doesn't mean I can love when you told be you were going to leave I felt broken I didnt know what I would do without you I was depressed my sister helped me not to think about it then again nothing helped your light gon your my light and sometimes I must look away I came here to tell you my feelings but when I saw you with him it broke my heart and everyday you were with him it just broke my feelings it hurt it really did it hurt when you two were kissing I couldn't take it anymore and if your reading this I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry for not being there for you and that I love you I'll miss you gon I will I hope me leaving will make you happy cause that's the only thing I want you being happy so good bye gon my princess.
Yours sincerely
Killua

I ran where ever I could go to killua I ran and ran I couldn't give up on him not yet I don't want to he's my future he loves me I can't let him go I then couldn't feel his sent I fell down on my knees it was raining I looked down "no,no this can't be happening no,no pls killua come back I'm sorry"I said crying I then looked up and had an idea I got all the nen I could and searched for killua's nen power I searched and searched and BOOM I got a strong nen source I gasped "HES ALMOST AT THE DECK" I said I then got up and ran I didn't care if the rain dropped on me I only cared to find Killua and tell him I'm really sorry this time I ran and ran until I saw him tears falling down he was there he was really there I ran "KILLUAAAAAA!"
killua's POV
I was walking with the sky pouring rain on me I was wet my hair covering me my hair being soaked down not up anymore I was walking wet looking down I was almost at the deck when I heard someone shout my name "KILLUAAAAAA" I looked back it was gon "gon?" I said she ran to me crying and hugged me I was confused "IM SORRY KILLUA IM SORRY PLS FORGIVE ME *crying* I'm sorry killua for not knowing I'm sorry for letting you down I'm sorry for telling you mean things I sorry for breaking your heart hurting your feelings killua pls don't leave pls don't leave....pls *sniff*......don't leave me" gon said "b-but I thought you didn't want me s-so I thought it would be best for me to leave" I said quietly she shook her head then looked at me with watery eyes "no I didn't mean it I d-do w-want y-you to stay" she said looking down I lifted up her chin and cupped her cheeks with my hands "gon.....I forgive you don't cry" I said she looked at me with a sad expression "y-you d-do" she said "yeah don't cry" I said wiping her tears away I then rubbed her head and smiled at her "I actually only wanted a simple apology" I said chuckling she was looking at me "k-killua" gon said getting close "yeah" I said "I love you" she said getting closer and.....