Dreams can be true (Hyunjin)

2.28 Out of control

Taesung: that is because I trained before I came here
Mia: back to rehearsal, break will come soon

-time skip-

It's been a heavy week with dancing, I feel like my soul left my body a while ago. Being an idol is already difficult but being a famous idol is killing me. Is not that I don’t like being famous and I know a lot of people work to get this far, but I feel the pain now.

The pain that comes with being an idol, being hated on, called ugly names, single life, being kind all the time, and not being able to be yourself all the time. I am probably so angry and furious because I haven’t seen Hyun-jin in a whole month.

Or phones were take away by the manager he said that we will get five minutes with it each day. I have no idea how I survive without my phone, I think I might go mad soon. I texted Hyun-jin that I won't be able to reply to him in case he was texting or calling me.

Mia: How is life?

Y/n: it's exhausting

Mia: did you hear the news?

Y/n: you know I don’t read that shit

Mia: alright I guess you don’t know

Y/n; If I knew don’t you think I would have said so

Mia; alright *walks away*

Y/n: *grabs her Arm* What was on the news?

Mia: this bi- I promised Si-Yeon I would stop cruising

Y/n: are you going to tell me?

Mia: there is a new topic going on, it's about Hyun-jin. But since you do-

Y/n: TELL ME WHAT THERE IS ABOUT HYUNJIN!

Mia: *Shakes Y/n* Girl, clam your ass down! Its something about him dating someone

Y/n: do they have a picture?

Mia; yeah I think so, they assume its Yeji and Hyunjin, again *shows Y/n the article*

Y/n: I will come home late! *Extremely mad*

I was away for a fuckings month and he is already over on her! What kind of bullshit is this!? He really is trying to screw this relationship over!

Telling me those pretty lies to keep our relationship a secret, but now he is on the head news with that bitch. That ugly motherfucker Yeji is the biggest catfish in the whole world! She loves to get involved with my life, just like in the past!

Being an idol does include following rules, but some rules are meant to be broken just like Yeji’s face when I see that Bitch. I drive the car all over to JYP where I know that this asshole and bitch is at. They really dead when I enter the fuckings door.

At JYP-
Y/n: where is that fucker? *grabs a member*

Han: Stay clam Y/n, i-

Y/n: I ASKED WHERE-

I stopped talking cause reality hit me, nobody knows I am dating Hyun-jin. So if I ask for him they might get an idea and I scream at poor Han Jisung.

How can I scream at a puppy face like his? My gut feels awful and there wasn’t much desire that kept me going.

My hands fell on Han’s shirt and I just looked down. My heart really hit the ground, realizing I might lose Hyun-jin again.

Y/n: I am sorry for screaming, I am out of control

Han: it's alright, but you scared the hell out of me

Y/n: Sorry, do you know where I can find Yeji?

Han: you find Yeji?

Y/n: it's for work *fakes a smile*

Han: I think I saw her in room 3792

Y/n: Thanks *runs to room 3792*