𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐠𝐞//part 2 of 'my first and my last'

A party.

"girlfriend?!" i said shocked "yeah" she chuckled "when did you guys start dating?" i asked grinding my teeth "Umm, about a month ago" she smiled, about a month ago? she doesn't even know the day they started dating? i remember the day i met him. September 8 1985, almost going to be a year.

"oh how great" i forced a smile "umm how about we play-spin the bottle? were playing spin the bottle!" joey yelled out.

Spin the bottle.

I spun the bottle. And got the boy I never seen before. We kissed for like 5 seconds. He spun and got Dutch. Johnny spun. And he got Ali. He didn't even look at me for permission or anything. He just went for it. They kissed for a long time. Like a full make-out.

"yeah a peck, you? A make out. 2 different things!" I was mad, if they pecked each other I would've been fine. I would've been inside having fun, but no. "We have history! Nothings gunna change" my heart broke in half, hearing those words come out of Johnny's mouth broke me "so your saying, you still like Ali?" I turned around, he looked down and stood there in a silence.

"What was I then? A rebound?!" I yelled

A game i promised myself i wouldn't play again not after what happened to me and johnny. I get PTSD everytime i see a bottle in general on the floor.

"i'm not playing, i have a boyfriend" i sat on my bed while they sat in a circle. "yeah we aren't either, were dating" Jennifer pulled Leo's-Leonardo's arm onto Jazlen's bed, Jazlen couldn't come she had a date with a boy in her 5th period.

"alright just us" joey chuckled, they soon started playing. The three of us just watching, it felt so weird, just watching the play the game i hate.

"i'm going to the bathroom, ill be back"i got up and left the dorm room, i heard footsteps following me. "Delilah wait..." Leonardo said pulling my shoulder "Now you want to talk?" i crossed my arms "im sorry, iv'e just been really thinking about what you said the last time i saw you" he said "i heard that the only reason your back with bobby is because i said: were just friends" he slightly smiled "is that the only reason you came after me, to tell me: thank you for that, now i'm going to hate you and ignore you again" i mocked.

"don't act like you didn't ignore me first" he laughed "but at least i tried to make us friends again, you did nothing" i stared at the hallway "go to your girlfriend, kiss her but don't say: were just friends after. Thats breaks a girls heart" i pouted as i tried to walk away.

"you thought i didn't want to kiss you?!" he pulled my arm, i just stared at him "i did, i really did. you know why? because i was in love with you Delilah!" she smiled "then why'd you say we were just friends?" i asked "because i was afraid if i didn't say that then you would stop talking to me, but either way you did" he huffed.

"Do you love him?" he asked "that's a question i don't need to answer" i walked away, him following "it a simple yes or no question, do you love him or not?" he asked again "yes! i do love him, very much" i lied.

"you have a girlfriend, i have a boyfriend. were both in a relationship that we should stick with" i know i said i would wait for him but, this is not a good time. "we could be friends, but nothing else" i stopped walking "you still have the ring" he said "what?" i asked "you still have the ring, i must've thought you threw yours away" he looked at the floor "you still have yours" i folded my hands together.

"Always" he said.