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Unbelievable

Yup you guessed it. I had just bumped into Sophie. Ughhhh what a pain I could not even look at her without feeling hateful against her. Sophie: "Sorry but sometimes you need to stop being dramatic. The world does not revolve around you." I looked at her very perplexed. Me:" how did you get here if I did not even feel you were behind me." Sophie:" sometimes you are a bit predictable. Come on let's go have some lunch." I decide to follow her because I found it very creepy how she was able to show up that fast. We eat some panda express while she started to talk about how great Alex was. I was still in utter belief that he would decide to date Sophie. Like even I if I were a guy would think about it twice before dating her. Sophie: "I hope I make a good impression on Alex. " Sophie takes a kissey face selfie. At this point I was only eating because I had to but boy was I losing my appetite. I then hear my phone buzz. I check and see an incoming text from unknown number. I decided to open to see who it was.

Hey sorry for not asking your number earlier Randy gave me your number. I was wondering if tomorrow you can run the coffee shop by yourself. I had a bit of an inconvenience. Sorry if this surprises you.

I was quite surprised with his text. The first day and now all of a sudden he wants to ditch. Talk about serious work ethic. But at least he did ask I remember one time with Randy he did not even tell me until I had gotten there so props to him for at least giving me a heads up. I decide to text him back.

Me: Hey don't worry like I told you I will be fine. Thanks for letting me know!

Sophie:"hey who are you texting?? do you have a boyfriend already?!?!" I chuckled a bit. Me: "no Sophie its my coworker he was asking me something that's all. I am honestly not ready to have another boyfriend in a while." I could not even believe she was thinking of me having a boyfriend. After finding out that Alex cheated on me was the worst thing ever. It really stinged when Sophie said those hurtful things earlier. I honestly felt so unlovable by Alex that I did not understand why he would cheat on me. Flashbacks were going through my head causing me a bit of anxiety.

Flashback

It was just an ordinary day I had just came back from a hectic day from the coffee shop. I decided to stop by Alex's apartment and surprise him with dinner. I was honestly looking forward to dinner because for once I did not want to think about work. I drove to his apartment and just when I was about to open his apartment door because I had the keys I saw them. A nice brunette was making out with my ex-boyfriend. Alex saw me and his eyes opened so big you could probably fit a lemon in each eye. Me: "what the fuck Alex. Why?!?!?!" Alex: "look I honestly got bored of you. You are always working anyway. I honestly wanted something exciting in my life." The brunette kept holding onto his arm hiding away like I couldn't see her. I did not want to cry in front of them and just slammed the door. I decided to drive to the park and just cry in the parking lot. It was quite unbelievable how I could love someone like him. My whole life I had dreamed about the guy of my dreams but boy was I wrong. I got the most trashiest person in the world that I THOUGHT was my boyfriend. Crazy how love at times has you feeling super happy that you can almost forget about your surroundings but it can lead to a horrible thing like this. I felt so heartbroken that I felt my heart was literally breaking. It almost felt like I was never important to Alex. Like if I was a toy that he can destroy and use whenever he wanted to. But he was so wrong it was bad enough I could not be in my happiest life I did not have the right to put up with his crap.

Well what a train wreck of emotions haha. I snapped out of thoughts completely ignoring what Sophie was saying. I literally zoned out of her conversations whenever I am with her. Me: "hey Sophie I should be heading home. See ya." Sophie: "bye primis thanks for coming" and then smiled at me. I literally rolled my eyes as soon as I started walking. What a long day I heard my phone buzz again.