Butterflies were my Favorite

Chapter 1

Carter

Ok so here we go......

Hi I'm Carter and you already know that, so here's my beginning I guess. So, here we go.

1 year ago 

"Today is the day I'm gonna tell my parents." Was my thought process during this maybe life altering decisions which surprisingly it will be more that I had originally thought. I do now regret this decision but you can't take back what you have already done it's out there now so I'm gonna have to live with it. 

I heard a know at my door "Are you gonna do it today?" asked my twin brother Noah.

I replied nervously "I don't know I'm debating it. But I think it would be good for me to tell them than someone else outing me."  

"Ok then but if you need anything me and Ximenna got you (my older sister) and if anything happens you know Ximenna will let you live with her for 3 months until she has to go back to college." He replied.

"Thanks you guys are the best" I said back but little did I know that wouldn't be true at all.

I walk down to the kitchen where my mom is making dinner and my dad is in the garage working on his car he messed up the engine. I walk around looking at my mom and dad's wedding pictures that are in the kitchen and looking at my beautiful mother knowing I'm going to change her perspective on me. (More than I thought) My mama was humming her favorite song by Lionel Richie "Endless love" that my mom and dad's wedding song. My dad calls for me to get him a wrench but he had it in his hand so I didn't have to do anything. I went to the living room downstairs thinking about how I'm supposed to tell my parents I'm gay and fully into guys. What can I say I like it up the ass. I got up and went to my room which is downstairs by the downstairs bathroom. I start to play my piano and I just play random chords. I didn't notice how much time flew by until my mom called me upstairs to eat 2 and-a-half-hours later. I take a deep breath and make my way up the steep steps.

"Hold hands and close your eye." said my mother 

(We're catholic by the way that's why it's so nerve racking)

"So how was everyone's day at school?" asked my mother 

Everyone said good then it was my turn to say something. At this point I'm sweating and breathing really heavy terrified of what my parents are gonna say. I take a deep breath and then I start to reply...

"It was fine. Mama, papa I need to tell you guys something." I said really cautiously.

Noah and Ximenna are looking at my and our parents back and forth not knowing who or what to look at while I come out. 

Noah poked me whispering "If you don't want to do this you can back out and I can make something really crazy up real quick."

Then to my left Ximenna taps me and whispers "If anything happens I'm behind you." She said with a reassuring look on her face. 

I nod down both of them and look at parents straight in the eye's like my dad had always told me to do when you need to tell someone something important. My dad stares back at me knowing this is something that they need to pay attention my mama just staring back and me and my dad wondering what the hell is going on.