Merula's P.O.V
Its been a week since the incident where I and Adam kissed.We haven't talk about it yet and its look like he have been avoiding me.Or at least I'm avoiding him.
We didn't insult each other,arguing or even look at each others eyes.It killed me to be like this.I don't know why he looked really mad when I said it was a mistake.Shouldn't he be grateful so that he can have a date with his stupid crush.
Why can't he understand that I like him,he is my crush.But yet he still got a nerve to kiss me and now pretending nothing ever happened.I know he like someone else but al least ask forgiveness.He just play with my feeling and I felt so weak that I can't fight him back.
Adam always got my attention,like always.Starting in our first year,he always being the only one who brave enough to fight me.I felt annoyed at first but it turned out somehow,I fancy him.
When he save me on the cursed ice on our first year,proving that I'm good enough to get a family christmas with Weasley at year two.He even trust me and defended me infront of Tallbot.He also let me get my patronus,he always being kind to me.It just me who always pretend to be mean so that he couldn't find my weakspot.
But everything turn bad as the last week came.I felt embrassed as I want more from him.I want him to be my boyfriend,I want him to have crush on me.I want me to be his crush.
But it all go wrong and he now,planning a date for his crush.What a very good man.
I didn't have any appetie to eat today,so I just skipped lunch and goes to the courtyard.Its always empty whenever lunch time.That is also why I get my first kiss here.
I sit at the very same place when I'm with Adam before.I sit and watch the sky,at least I got a beautiful memory to be remembered and my mind is relax.
As I'm happily having my very own time,I heard a footstep behind me.I hide behind the tree as I saw Adam walk in.He sit at my place and his face look stress.
I just stare at him quietly.His eyes suddenly flooded with tears making my heart to break.I wanna comfort him,but I never done it before.The only person that I ever love is my mum.
I just watch him from a far.For a while he just crying,like a girl.He really sometimes do look like a girlish but sometimes too,he look very manly.His cute side attracted me,and his manly side make me fall harder.
Suddenly another person walk in.I saw penny Haywood entering it and pull Michael in a hug.
Anger flooded inside me,jealousy took all of me.She then said a few things that makes Michael to laugh.They sit together,very same to what we both have done,but now he is with Penny out of all people.
I felt jealous but then I just remember something.Maybe its Penny who he likes.The thought of it makes me hurt.My brain ask me to ask him,but my heart tell me that I'm hurt enough.
They suddenly stand up and headed out from the courtyard together.Weirdly Penny's hand is on his wrist.Does it really need to do that?
I walk from behind the tree and sit at the place back.Michael's perfume still can be smelled.I disguted at myself at how much I like him.But he in the other hand,like Penny...or even love her.
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Today's potion class will be replaced by cleaning the class.Snape said it because the fellow Slytherin student break almost three of the cauldron and it is our fault for not teaching them.
I look around and see there is no Adam.Yes!!
My lips curled into a smile.
