A Not So Funny Game

ANSFG : #1 Started So freaking Bad

All I wanted to say ,

All I wanted to do ,

Has fall apart now..

All I wanted to feel.

I wanted to love,

It's all my fault now..

A tragedy I fear...

"One capuccino coffee and a slice of cheesecake Miss."

I stated my order. Woah I really so damn miss this place.

Its been months..

I don't wanna mention it anymore. It brings back the pain.. The memories of us being together.. Hey I gotta move on. He's gone. Why does that sounds fcking hurt in so many levels the fact that he's gone?! And why does it have to be him? Why not me? I am much deserving to that! I'm a hard-headed bitch. But why him? He didn't deserved that one. If only, I could spare his life..

But it's all been done.. Move on Mikyle. Hindi ka pa ba napapagod umiyak ng umiyak? But he's worth of my tears right?

I'm so lost in you , A tragedy it seemed to be. But what now ?

"One capuccino and cheesecake." She said smiling at me and giving me my order.

I smiled back at her while taking my order and I sat on the near table.

Afterall what happened, gusto ko huminga. After my recovery and sleepless nights of draining all my tears , I dont think I still have tears to cry out. It's too much. Sooner or later mababaliw na'ko. I shrugged the thought of me being crazy.

No way for that!

I really fckng need to breath and this place is a good place to relax myself besides papasok na ulit ako bukas. Madami dami ang hahabulin kong lessons.

Midterms na pala and the whole past few months I was stocked on that place lying on that white bed and just stare all day long on the white painted walls of that room!

That's quite a disgusting experience.

But of course that was just nothing compared to the painful feeling I've felt and still feeling it right now...

I am silently drinking my coffee.

Nilibot ko yung tingin ko sa loob ng coffeeshop. There's a few people who were silently drinking their coffees too. I wonder kung may nakakaramdam din kaya sa kanila ng gaya ng nararamdaman ko ngayon?

Habang nililibot ko yung paningin ko, may isang guy na nakaagaw ng pansin ko.

It's hard not to pay attention to him cause goodness gracious! He's gorgeous. But I can see sadness on his eyes. Those pair of mysterious eyes. Gahd! Did he just cried all night? Namamaga yung mata nya. It's obvious that this guy cried hard. Kung may problema sya dapat sa bar sya pumunta. Not in a coffeeshop.

What the hell I care ? Since when did I started to mind others' business especially with a stranger ? Stupid me. I know I have bigger problems than him. So why care?

Inubos ko na yung coffee ko. I stood up . I need to rest. Uuwi nako. My mom would be so worried about me.

Habang binubuksan ko yung glass door ng coffeeshop. I turn my head to take a one last glance to that guy and he was still wearing that sadness on his face yet still his eyes were still both look mysterious for me.

What was his problem? What made his eyes look so sad like that? Don't he think that it's not yet a doom's day?!

There's really in this coffeeshop also share the same feelings of sadness with mine huh. And It's him . Filled with sadness too like I do. Great . We should pity each other.