Hopeless

Nine: Argument no.10000

Monday:

I am still furious about Saturday night. I hear the whispers the second I step into the gates, I just clench my jaw and keep my head down continuing to walk into my art and he was sat there already, I make a point to drop my sketchbook on the desk to make a loud noise, he didnt flinch didnt even look at me fine. I didnt want him to. I was too mad to paint anything calm so I pull out my laptop to edit some photos

When I tell you that lesson dragged. It felt like I had been in there 4 hours but had only been one, and I had Harry's double art later to sit through as well, believe me when I say I was the first one out that classroom when the bell went
"Ivy" harry was following me, he made himself very clear the other night what he thinks "ivy stop walking" I am making my way to my car to grab my lighter I had left in there "Mush." He says sternly
"Dont call me that. You don't get to call me that" I mean it worked because I stopped I'm my tracks turning on my heels and pointing at him "you made yourself very clear on Saturday" I carried on walking almost at my car

"For christ sakes will you just stop!" He basically shouts and grab my wrist, I stomp on his foot hard so he let go of me which he did "ah ya fuck" he hisses "what the fuck are they made out of" one thing my docs are good for "just hear me out" he says softly
"No, fuck you. Its all good to be my friend until your social life and so call reputation is in jeopardy then its let hit it where it hurts shall we" I snapped grabbing my lighter and relocking my car

"I know! I'm sorry!" He tries to reason with me
"No. You're not. Friends dont just ditch each other when its convenient for their image," i meant every word as i took out a cigarette and lit it between my lips, stressed running my hand through my hair
"What else was I supposed to do!" He spoke like I was the one in the wrong
"What were you meant to do? what do you mean what the fuc-"
"No I know what i should have-" we began talking over eachother this is hopeless
"But if you'd shut up for 2 seconds!" we both say at the same time

"My point is I'm sorry" he gives me puppy dog eyes but they don't work on me
"And my point is go fuck yourself" my French side starts to show when I get mad, I begin to walk back towards the building not wanting to deal with harry

.   .   .

I walk out the humanities block after psychology, hearing a rather heated conversation
"Why cant you just leave her alone! What has she ever done to you for you to be a dick" it was harry
"Oh come on hazza, it's just a joke" and Louis I walk towards the conversation but stay hidden
"But it's not, she's human with feelings and she had a job to do" is he?
"Are you seriously sticking up for her?!"
"Yes because shes a good person Louis, maybe you could take a couple pages out of her book" he raised his voice more then Louis did, making me go wide eyed slightly
"If you think shes so great just fuck her already, maybe then you'll get a grip"
"Maybe if you got to know her-"
"Are you hearing yourself! We are popular, we could have anyone and you chose her and for what? Shes a freak"
"I suggest you walk away while you still can"

It went quiet I hear the click of a lighter debating for a second if I should go around the corner, I walk away a little and just walk around the corner as if I hadnt been stood there listening to their conversations "Ivy" he grabbed my attention and I stopped walking standing abit away from him "I really am sorry" he meant it
"Thank you" was all I said "I've got an idea for tonight, would it be okay if you came straight from school?"
"Okay"
"I'll see you then"

.  .  . 

Harry had already taken his photos for this brief of water, which would be the beach photos, I had a couple ideas but I hated painting water i can never get it right but that might just me
"What's your plan then" rosemary leant against the Bathroom door
"Not sure but I am thankful you cleaned the bathroom the other day" she just laughed and walked away

Harry had to take a short detour to get a couple things from home first before coming to mine with I didnt mind because it gave me chance to organise everything
"I'm here" I hear him call as he walked through the front door
"Shes upstairs" I hear him basically run upstairs finding me in the bathroom
"Should I be worried?"
"No... maybe.."

I ran the bath so it's hot but not scolding, harry getting changed in the office I place a black bath bomb in the bath along with some dried rose petals i stole from rosemary
"This looks intresting" he says reappearing, he wore a black formal shirt and suit trousers
"Hmm," I responded still not quite figuring out what hes gonna... its missing something

He lowered himself into the bath
"This is so cool" he ran his hands through the water enjoying the darkness off the water like a kid
"Cigarette?" I offer from my pack up
"Inside?"
"For art purposes" he nodded and took one out the pack putting it between his lips, I grabbed my ashtray on the side of the bath

It got strangly quiet so I put some music on in the background so It wasn't that intense, i flick the lights off and dim the studio lights a little to make shadows
"Hows you painting coming along" I started conversation to fill the atmosphere
"Its good, it's almost finished"
"Already?"
"Mhm" he slid down in the bath slightly he brought the cigarette leaving it there for a second looking at something on the ceiling

I snap the photo and he tapped the ash off, "it's one of my favourites I've done in a long time" he continues, making me smile
"Good," I nodded
"Somethings wrong" harry commented stubbing out the cigarette
"I'm just thinking that's all, can you just go all the way under so your hairs wet?" He nodded and did as I said, laughing when he almost inhaled a dried rosebud on the way down

We took more photos conversation being sparse and basically just small talk but that was because I was concentrating. I am stood on the bath balancing taking photos from above of harry, I wobble and harry sits up grabbing my thighs so I didnt fall
"If I fall save my camera" I chuckled "now... I didnt think about getting down"
"Here give me the camera" I hand it to him and he places it on a towel on the floor harry stood up, not sure how I am still balanced "put you arm around my shoulder" I did as he said and lifted me off the tub so I didnt slip and fall
"Dinner!" Rosemary called up, I frowned not knowing she was cooking
"I guess that's us done"