What's Wrong with Us? (killugon)

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(Gon p.o.v)

School is over. There was a gnawing anxiety in me. I walked out of classroom to see Killua waving at me, signaling that we're supposed to get ice cream now. Gon..it's ok, he won't hurt you. i think. I put my hoodie over my eyes and walked towards him. He smiled at me and i had no choice but to smile back, it wasn't a soft smile it was a forced and nervous one. He seemed to notice, "Hey are you ok?" I looked up at him my eyes wavering around his face. Should i talk to him about it, i just saw him kill someone so i don't think i can casually approach him about this. "u-uh no i'm o-okay thanks." i couldn't help but stutter, "Uhm alright, well let's go now! I know a really amazing cafe!" With that he pivoted on his heels and signaled me to follow him.

We arrived at the Cafe and i couldn't help but get a sinking feeling in my stomach that something was going to happen. Killua's bright smile erased me from my thoughts, i couldn't help but stare. "What are you looking at..b-baka." he got all flustered and embarrassed, putting his sleeves over his hands and covering his face.
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"Can i get a chocolate ice cream cone with chocolate drizzle and chocorobots!" Killua excitedly spoke to the cashier at the Cafe. "Damn how do you not have diabetes?" "shut up idiot, i just like chocolate no need to bully me" he chuckled and sat down. "Are you going to get something?" he asked me but i just stared at him. His figure was so perfect and fair. "G-gon can you uh stop staring..it's scaring me heh." "Oh crap sorry haha i just zoned out" i lied. "No im not going to get anything i'm not that hungry." i lied again. I was to nervous to eat, i couldn't help replaying that moment over and over in my head. I know i was just talking about how hot he was but I can't look him in the eyes without seeing that blank expression on his face and he killed that man. "Hey gon?" i say down across from him "Hm?" "I'm really sorry for walking out on you the other day..i had to take care o-of something for my family." "oh uhm it's ok don't worry" I lied. "Really you're not mad?!" "No." Im not mad. i'm scared. "Ok great!" He said with a small smile i couldn't help but notice the slight pain in his eyes for a quick second. "Are you really going to eat all that chocolate, that's like asking for heart failure." i giggled. "Oh shut up!" he pouted. I couldn't hold back my laughter at his face. He seemed to loosen up a little and laugh with me. Our laughter ceased as his phone dinged. Was it? His expression darkened again, Not again please no. "U-uhm Gon i'm so s-sorry i really have to g-g-get home my uh family wants me back." "Wai-!" "Sorry." he breathed slowly and he dashed out the door. Is he going to kill another person..? I question myself as i walked out the Cafe door hearing the little bell jingle.

I got back to my house, took my shoes off and placed my backpack on the floor in the kitchen. "AUNT-MITO!" Silence. Guess she's not home. I darted up the stairs and flopped on my bed. I couldn't hold the tears back anymore. The fear of looking in his eyes. The anxiety of watching his eyes go to that dark and blank expression. My quiet sobs filled my room. The comfortable silence of being alone, that feeling was always one i felt comfort in.

(Killua p.o.v)

I felt tears prick my eyes as i left Gon speechless in that Cafe. Stupid fucking missions. I wish i could leave this stupid excuse of a life, but sadly i cant. I walked to the address Illumi sent me.

I could already smell the scent of fear and horror radiating off the man i'm about it to kill. "P-P-PLEASE D-DONT KI-L-L ME!" "If you behave i'll do it quickly, now shut the fuck up your giving me headache it's pathetic. Pathetic...like me. As he continued begging for his life i groaned and ended his life in a quick chop to his neck. The light draining form his eyes, the image of blood painted all over the concrete floor. I sprint back up the hill disappearing in the darkness. Should i visit Gon..i fell terrible. Yeah i'll go but first i need to shower, i smell like blood. I sprinted back home only to be greeted by Illumi at the gates. "What's wrong ani-kii?" He stared me down. "Your planning something aren't you." that didn't feel like a question more of a statement. "What do you mean?" "Where do you plan on going tonight?" Shit he read right through me "Uh...too..uh...a..uhm...friends?" Oh no. "A friends? That's ridiculous you don't have friends." I stared at the ground hoping that he will leave me alone but i knew he wouldn't. "Assassins. Don't. Have. Friends. Got that?" "Yes i know." i ran into my room slamming the door behind me. I bawled up into the corner crying.

Little do they both know they were crying together. Both boys thinking the same thing

What do i do?

HEY HEY HEY! HEHEHEH I FINISHED FINALLY LMAOAOAO i hope u like it this one is much longer than the others!! I've just been so busy with school and drama it's so fucking annoying anyways here it is enjoy :) THANK U SM FOR 175 views! this is amazing i am so grateful. i love all of u BYE!

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