Namjoon's POV
I have to work hard everyday so i can eat and be able to pay for my school expenses . It's not that I dont have a family I do but they are not like before and that's what hurts the most is because i have felt their love before and when I presented as an Omega every thing has changed they grew distant they abuse me both physically and mentally i cant really tell anyone that because I have no one to tell or i have shut out everyone i had. i can't allow myself to be broken Im broken enough i feel like the next person that comes into my life and decide come and leave will leave me shattered and it will be the last thats why i let no one close enough to hurt me .
My trail of thoughts gets broken as the store manager banged his hand on the counter making me whimper , pathetic i know I guess his still grouchy because I refused to let him court me .
"Sorry sir what do you want " I tried to say that without sounding rude but i am at my breaking point right know stupid beta thinks he can control me as easy as that .
"Kim Namjoon you are not being payed to sit around doing nothing "
"I dont see something that should be done or do you " purge we need the purge here in Korea the first thing I am doing is going to his house to murder him ( for those who dont know it's a movie where in a town or what ever get 6 hours anything everything is legal )
" have you looked at shelf and seen whats missing and written it down "
" isn't that your job ?" I said raising my eyebrow a little i mean brooooooo!
"Are you being sarcastic omega "
He said in an intimidating voice more like a baby to me
" you got this all wrong Seo Song Hae" I mean am I supposed to take that (I just came up with the name sorry if it's bad )
"Omega !!" I flinched at the loud voice
"Sorry I'll do better " I just need to quickly get him off my back like really fast .
" I will be back i don't need you spacing out here or else I'll be calling you parents to let them know of your incompetence " you see my parents keep track of what i am doing like constantly on my back its not because they want me at all its because they need me to breed them pups ever since they found out I am strong enough to breed a bunch of healthy and strong alphas they been on my back they don't even show any affection towards me ,not that it matters any more im used to it now , I am pretty much numb towards it all. The salary here is not that good but good enough to pay my fees and and two meals a day ,accommodation is covered by the school well its a campus i dont know how but i just dont give a fuck as long as I can be away from them just a little i would appreciate it but my half brother goes to the same school as me damn right . My father used cheat on my mom and she got my mom and his mistress pregnant on the same time thats why me and my half brother are 2 weeks apart he's older than me you can imagine how long that has been going on . They never really told me what happened after that i really dont know because because my step mom would always say that to me when she would insult me she would tell me my mom was never satisfactory to my dad thats why he went outside to go and get the satisfaction to go out and satisfy him self and my mom was use less just like me I would never be any satisfactory to any alpha or beta trust me I dont care, it used to hurt , all i ever wanted was their love thats all , I cant get it from them nobody else would give that to me so i stoped dreaming a long time ago and started to live reality , started to wake myself up .
I worked through out the day and here comes the final customer , he's not bad looking in fact he looks handsome , i wish maybe I had some features like those i mean i look like a goddamn monkey he looks really handsome he had long raven hair and sharp jaw line , he approached me with a bunny smile on his face quite cute actually ,too bad I cant fake a smile back I dont know why, I stoped smiling when I was like 16 when I presented as an Omega i cant remember how to. I heard you were supposed to be happy first . He gave me his items so i can ring them it was banana milk, three 450ml bottles weird dude then I see him moving his lips i couldn't hear him because I was spacing out again .
"Huh whatsa say I couldn't catch yah "he chuckled i little a cute chuckle infact
" never mind " he took his plastic bag and was on his way out he stoped this time I made sure I was not spacing out
"Your beautiful you should smile more it would make you even more ethereal " he smiled at me and turned to walk out of the store . I couldn't understand why he said that it doesn't matter i am going to forget it anyway .
I ran out of the store after the night shift worker got there i have to run and get to school tomorrow is the first day of school i am a senior so i have got to be ready and prepared for every thing well everything is prepared but i have to double check i always manage to destroy or forget something one way or the other i dont get why maybe thats the reason people who i love hate me .
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I tried to explain Dark Souls in this chapter . This is not some evil shit this dark things I have a very dark personality so expect a lot of that please if your sensitive this is not a book for you
Yeah there is romance some fluff if i ever feel influenced by Hobi but lately its been all Suga so i apologise
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DARK souls (namkook)
Fantasywho would have known that falling on love is easy loving is hard it hurts and nothing can compare to that pain
