Hopeless love once felt like..

Chapter 3 Masquerade Ball pt2

Our eyes lock and I don't know what to do at this point- "I should go, I need to find my boyfriend, see you around the ball.!." Diana says. As she's about to walk away I just say. Damn it. Fuck it. * I grab her arm and pull her to me * we kissed. It was real. It felt so real. It WAS real. I knew it was wrong. But at that point I didn't care. But I had to. I pull her away and she stares at me in shock. With a straight face I say, "Diana I love you" I say as I pull off my mask. *whispers* "and god, I wish you didn't have to forget this." *speaks in Latin* she closes her eyes and I quickly put on my mask and run. I made her forget.. Every inch, memory, thought. Of us kissing, of anything that was going on between us at the party. It was gone. Am I proud of it? No. Do I wish I didn't do it? Yes. But did I have to do it.? Yes.

I run under the staircase and burst into tears. I ruined it I ruined everything this is my fault I can't keep my feelings to myself. "What if the spell didn't even work- no you saw her close her eyes- a long blink?- shit." My mascara runs down my cheeks and I run into the girls bathroom. I run into the first stall I see realizing I left Diana alone. But it was for the best I had to do THIS. Fuck. *runs outside* "JEREMY?? JEREMY. JEREMY SHIT COME ON ANSWER ME" I say as I cry more and my voice feels strained. "DAMN IT JEREMY WHERE ARE YOU- DIANA NEEDS YOU" I yell with all the power my voice has "YOUR'E WHATS BEST FOR HER."

My hair is soaking wet, water is running down my chest, my arms, and my gown. My mascara runs down my eyes and stains my mask. My feet cramp and I collapse. Next thing I know I wake up in someone's bed. "Who the fu- did I- hell no. I- I collapsed. Hold on" I say in my head as my mind fills with conclusions. I finally take a look around and there's a dark purple silk bed, with amazing artists on the wall. Great taste. Who's room so it though. My shoes are off, my dress is off and my comfortable clothes I put under are still there though. Yet barely dry. My hair is messy. "HOLY- DID I- WHO DID I DO IT WITH THOUGH- HOW DRUNK WAS I- I DIDN'T EVEN GET DRUNK-" I yell in my head. I jump to each thought and what it could mean. I look to my left. "Oh hey looks like you're awake." This mystery woman said with a smile. "Hi my names Caroline, Caroline Avery. I heard you screaming outside and it looked like you needed help." She said. "Hi Caroline nice to meet you- did you happen to see-" she cut me off. "Don't worry girl, I'm not a creep, honestly you're lucky some creepy guy didn't come up to your lifeless body." She said while sneaking in a chuckle. *i laugh* "haha, yeah. Thanks!" I say. She sits next to me and I tell her everything, leaving out the part I kissed Diana, cause not gonna even lie Caroline was cute. Um- but that's besides the point. " you're in a situation. Voka?" Caroline asks. "Sorry, I don't drink." I respond. "Okay! That's fine, by the way I totally think you should go after what you want. You deserve it." She says with a smile. Before I know it she starts pouring a glass champagne. "Maybe you're not a Voka kind of girl! Here. Try at least a little." I did, and it was honestly really good. We drank and listened to heartbreak songs for the rest of the night, I even forgot about Diana.

"I should probably get back to my dorm" I say as I release my breath after laughing and crying. "Yeah, but you're kinda sober. Or drunk. Whatever you prefer-" we laugh, and she walks me to my dorm. "Good night, and thanks for hanging with me.!" Caroline says as we stop walking when we get to my dorm door. "No problem!" I respond. She grabs one of my hands softly and says, "and I haven't made much friends here, so I'm glad I sorta made one.!" Caroline and me smile, one of our hands each are still touching, it goes silent and our eyes meet. It was like Diana but different. At the time I couldn't even think of Diana. She slowly lets go of my hand and says, "welp, goodnight" with a smile. "Goodnight.!" I say and I'm about to close my door, but through the crack I see Caroline walking away, and I see through the window Jeremy and A blonde chick, while being a little to close under a tree. *I close the door so Diana wouldn't wake up.* *whispers* "what the fu-"