Twisted wonderland one shots !!!!!

Jamil x Female reader {If I could tell him}

A/N: Another of Jamil!! I think jamil said he had a sister... anyway the photo above is her I would call her Tahmina Viper (If that's your name please change It with something else :) ).

"She thought you were awesome" How did I end up here In the first place?... oh yeah, Tahmina Viper.

"She thought I was awesome? My sister?" She was Jamil's sister. Was.

"Definitely!" Well, everything started a couple of weeks before. I saw Tahmina a couple of times when the scarabia incident, we just exchanged a few words but here I am, saying that we were the best of friends. After the winter break they found her dead in her room. I knew that Jamil and her weren't in good terms exactly but her suddenly death took him by surprise. Kalim and I where getting worried, he didn't eat, he didn't talk... So I thought that lying to him would be the best solution, because, why not? Everyone feels better when they're lying to them.

"How?" Jamil's harsh tone make me look at him. He tried to look though but his eyes sparkled with curiosity and... hope.

"Well, she said
There's nothing like your smile
Sort of subtle and perfect and real" I felt my face become hotter and a blush creep to my cheeks. Jamil looked at me with eagerness. I looked away and continued talking.

"She said
You never knew how wonderful
That smile could make someone feel" I could hear my heart beating a thousand miles per hour. I just hoped he didn't notice me playing with the hem of my shirt beneath the table.
Jamil's eyes grow bigger and I smiled softly at saying this.

"And she knew
Whenever you get bored
You scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans" I awkwardly shuttered blushing. I looked at his baggy jeans to see the little drawings there and there. He seemed to blush a little too at my observation. Well, I should say her's.

"And she noticed
That you still fill out the quizzes
That they put in those teen magazines." My mouth curved in a teasing grin seing how he tried to cover his blush. I culd hear him muttering "that was just one time.." I giggled silently at how cute he was. My smile turned into a sad one.

"But she kept it all inside her head
What she saw she left unsaid" I started to get nervous, looking at my side the feeling of guilt growing bigger in my stomach.

And though she wanted to
She couldn't talk to you
She couldn't find the way"  Fidgeting with my fingers I quickly glanced his way, he looked sad? Broken? Regretful? I felt even worse. One thing was not having a good relationship with his sister but this was other thing.

"But she would always say" I smiled at him trying to ease the mod and I put my hand on his making him look at me.

"If I could tell him
Tell him everything I see" I squeeze his hand reassurly and looked to another point of the room smiling. I felt happy, my heart beating a mile per hour, finally confessing my feelings to him.

"If I could tell him
How he's everything to me"  I didn't notice him smiling softly at me too

"But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell him.." I looked at the end of my dress playing with the soft fabric with my free hand.

"Did she say anything else?"

"About you?" His serious tone surprised me again, now he was resting his chin in his hand  his other one touching mines.

"Never mind, I-I don't really care anyways" He let go of my hand, I felt a chill at the suddenly lost the source of heat  despite being in the dessert. He blushed waving his hands in the air excusing himself.

"No, no, no just, no, no she said, she said so many things
I'm just, I'm trying to remember the best ones so, um" I waved my hands in the air frantically blushing at the stupidness of my own question. He looked at me laughing at my 'cute' reaction which made me blush even more.

"She thought
You looked really handsome, I mean
It looked really cool when you put golden streaks in your hair" I blushed madly and screamed my correction praying for him not to notice it. At this point I didn't remember anything about Tahmina, we were just me and him in the room.

"She did?" He said with a teasing grin rising an eyebrow. I could feel he was enjoying this.

"And she wondered how you learned to dance
Like all the rest of the world isn't there" embarrassing myself I played with my fingers letting all my emotions flow.

But she kept it all inside her head
What she saw she left unsaid"
If I could tell him
Tell him everything I see"
If I could tell him
How he's everything to me
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell him"
If I could tell him
But what do you do when there's this great divide?"

"She just seemed so far away"

"And what do you do when the distance is too wide?"

"It's like I don't know anything"

"And how do you say
I love you" He looked deep in thought while looking at the table "I didn't  say that to her often... "

'I love you' my brain was repeating that every time.
'I love you' I needed to tell him now, this might be my only chance.
'I love you' why I can't? Why is so difficult?

"Thanks, Y/N" Raising my head I looked at him with big eyes "if it wasn't for you... I wouldn't know anything about my sister" He smiled at me softly.
"O-oh, it was nothing... " Smiling sadly looking at the floor I stood up. "It was a pleasure Jamil, but I think I should be going..."

'But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell him
If I could...'

Bonus:
"Y/N, wait!!" Something make me stop  before going through the mirror. It was Jamil.
"Jamil, what are- " "would you like to hang out with me tomorrow??" There was a small blush on his cheeks "we could make it a date, w-well just if you want to. I-I mean I want but... " I put my hands in his cheeks and smiled " yes Jamil, I'll love to go out with you "

A/N: Let's say you got a lot of kisses that day ; )