on and off. (billie x reader)

part 9

(Mention of suic*de)

BILLIES POV

It's the next morning and I wake up to the sound of the shower in the bathroom. Where the fuck am I?  I hear the door unlock and y/n came out. Then I realised what happened. I don't remember much though. " oh morning billie." "morning y/n." She seemed so angry. And I know exactly why. Then I hear "why billie?" " baby I can explain-" " no billie you can't. You are gonna say the same shit and.. no I can't do this anymore." " how did I get here?" "zoe and autumn said you got high and blacked out."

"I'm so sorry mamas but i-" " what was the promise ring for?  You promised me you would stop... you said you would quit. What happened? Did you decide to just throw that all away?" Fuck. I really hurt her. " bubba I'm so sorry. Things are just so hard. I just wanted to feel free. That is the only way to escape from c*tting. You're the only one that is keeping me safe and happy from all this. And if I lose you.. i- I just don't want to lose you. I have never opened up to anyone.. I'm sorry."

Y/N'S POV

I see billies eyes starting to become red. Maybe i fucked up. I didn't think she was in this much pain. And I was so hard on her. I just didn't want her hurt, when I realised I am just making it worse. " billie... come here." She crashes into my arms and I realised I shouldn't have been so hard on her. " billie. I want you to know that I love you. And I care for you. I just hate to see you like this. I didn't know that you were going through all this." "it's okay mamas I shouldn't have put so much weight on you. I love you y/n." " I love you too bubba." She gives me a kiss and we get into the car to get snacks from Costco. We go inside and billie gets takis, water, ingredients for a vegan bean burritos and some Coca Cola. I get (whatever you want), we get to the checkout and go back to campus. We put on some cheesy movie Billie wanted to watch on Netflix and she plays with my hair. Halfway during the movie she pauses and ask me question. " hey mamas I need to ask a quick question." " oh okay what is it?" " so you know the school break is about three months right?" "Yeah?" "I was wondering if you wanted to come home with me until school starts again?" " Billie! Of course I will go with you! But first I need too ask my parents if it's okay." "okay should we call now orr..." "yeah sure we can call now!" I get out my phone and call my mom.

"Hey mom!" " oh hi baby! How are you?" "I'm great!" "what's up honey?" "i was wondering if I could go to my girlfriends house for the holiday?"

BILLIES POV
Did she just call me her girlfriend? I hear her moms say that it was okay so I text my mom.

                                               Mama💞

Billie
Hey mom

Mama💞
Hi my love.

Billie
Can y/n stay for the holiday with us?

Mama💞
Did her parents say it was okay?

Billie
Yeah they did

Mama💞
Well then I have no problem with it!

Billie
Thanks mama❤

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"My mom said it was okay!" "That's awesome!" "So y/n can we leave tomorrow?" "I have to get my clothes though" "oh yeah. We will do that first and go the next day." "Sounds perfect." We cuddled and drifted of into sleep.

Hey guys I wanted go put you through an emotional roller coaster so I decided to write this! Hope you liked this one!💞