Sweat and grass ||Draco malfloy

The lonsom smith

Ch 1
Each step against the wet grass i sunk a little lower listening to the grass switch and the leaves crunch i couldn't hear the cries anymore i couldn't hear the bells or the priest all i could focus on was the cold grass soaking my shoes, i held my head low trying to hold back tears crying is for the weak my mother may be weak but i am not i will not cry someone had to be strong for milly i loved my father deeply he was fun and loving he was always there for me ever since the day i could speak we did everything together i couldn't stand my mother nothing i did was good enough nothing she was pathetic and my father knew it but he was gone actually gone i don't know why mother orcourse refuses to tell me what happened how could he be actually gone  i still refused to cry although all i wanted to do was scream and yell until my throat was ripped out of neck but i didnt i just walked aimlessly not knowing where i was going simply following the see of black coats.

I was snapped back to reality by a arm raping around my shoulder it was fred  my best freind he i didnt think he would come but it was fred. Practically my big brother  he was always around we've been friends since i was three he didn't speak he just walked alongside me i knew i could be myself around him he always made me feel safe. We walked through the grass sheltered from the rain by the dancing trees swaying slightly in the wind until we came to a sudden stop.
The ceremony began the priests voice ringing in my ears i could feel the tears gripping at the back of my eyes i grabbed fred's arm in hopes it would calm me "lila it's going to be fine he was a hero he won't be forgotten it ok to cry" fred  whispered thinking that it would help but those  words broke me its been 4 days since he ran into that fire 4 ays since he perished and i haven't cried one bit but fred's words broke me i nearly fell to the ground but fred grabbed me holding up right i buried my face in my hand as he pulled me into a hug my eyes hurt my body was shaking he was dead he was dead he was dead is all i could think, i was screaming into his chest as he dragged me away from the casket away from the horrors of my fathers body being lowered to the dirt.

"Lila lila its ok its gonna be ok" hushed fred  trying to calm me down i couldn't listen i felt like the trees were closing in my chest tightened my breaths were heavy percy finally lowered me to the cold wet grass just holding me as i cried i needed it i knew i did but i hated it fred was my weakness i couldn't hide from him he knew me to well. We stayed there for what felt like a eternity but that was it the page  turned the book was closed history had been writing in ink there was nothing i could do to bring him back he was dust but a dust that would stick with me the sight of his burned body on the stainless steel table like steak at a butchers but i could no turn back the page or rub out the ink they were forever  and forever a eternity i knew my life was changed and not for the better i could no longer be a 15 year old girl i would have to change my mher was a flake always was expasy now. My life has changed before I was ready to take part but I had no choice in the matter.
"Lila it's time to go now" whispered fred his voice calm and steady while pulling us off the wet ground,"lil you ok"

"No Freddie i'm not- but i will be" i shot him a fake smile a we began to walk towards the muffled group of black coats "thank you im sorry"
"Why are you sorry you have nothing to apologize lilla" fred replied, dusting the grass stains of his knees. What would tomorrow hold, what would tomorrow bring? I know it won't be pleasant there coming for us and when they did we would not be ready.

Fred  stayed with me that day like my personal guard dog the days morphed together it had been a week since the funeral we were back home back to our land. The land where I fit in I hated the muggle world. It was so crowded, everyone always in a hurry, what was so important to be huring in the muggle world. Nothing was.

We were always rich. My father worked high in the ministry but now we were living off savings how long they would ast i did not know. I was never spoiled if i needed something i had to work for it from cleaning to cooking or even being his assistant for a day i was NEVER handed things even school books which being a homeschool kid for tree years i really needed a lot of books so i was never free i lost touch with everyone except fred  he was a year older then me i knew his brother but i never got on with ron. Fred would apparate to visit me he knew i was lonley george would right and so would ginny but only two or three times a school year they were busy i know that. Dumbledor would allow fred and only fred to see me he explained to me that dumbledore said im still a hogwarts student even though i went there for a day i wasn't even sorted into a house before my father had to whip me away it "wasnt safe anymore". The only family allowed to visit my home  was the Weasleys. My father was paranoid and I guess for good reason because whatever happened he's dead now I will find out. I know I will.