The Substitute

Important Author's Note

Hi, everyone! I hope you're all doing alright!

I put a happy song in, for some motivation you might need. Just that little reminder that you're beautiful and worth it. Whatever you're up against, you can do this!

As you probably have seen, I'm not a frequent updater. I'm sincerely sorry about that. The thing is, I'm very busy with school this year. I'm in my senior year, which requires a lot of motivation, concentration and discipline that I don't have. School's forming a bit of a problem if I want to continue my writing.

Another thing is that this story is hard for me to write. When I came up with this story, I had already made a fast-forward. The beginning seems so dull to me now, but I have to pull through if I want to tell you the whole story.

I also have trouble with the way I wrote the first two chapters. Those chapters feel so unprofessional, messy and unclear that I have the constant urge to do something about it. I'm very unhappy with how I wrote those chapters. I've been thinking about rewriting them for a while now, and maybe that's what I will do. That would probably result in rewriting all the chapters up to now. Since I don't have time for that in all the upcoming months, it will most likely have to wait until June.

Yes, I know June is very far away from now, but I don't have a choice. My exams end in early June, so I should be able to write again after that. However, because of Covid, some changes have been made in the exam regulations. Now, I can spread out my exams over two periods or retake some exams in the second period. Chances are, I will. Only if I do, I can't update until the end of June or the beginning of July.

I hope you guys don't mind. It's all very stressful right now, and my ADD is definitely not helping. I'm a mess, honestly. I can't even trust myself if it comes to learning. I always get distracted and don't have the motivation to learn. I want to pass and keep my grades up, but my lazy, dumbhead is not cooperating. One side of me wants to do right and regrets doing useless stuff. The other side just keeps going and going and going on with nonsense. Like, I'm not even supposed to write this note. 

I know I can do this, but it's hard. Perhaps I need to listen to my own words at the beginning of this chapter. 

That's about everything I wanted to say. I hope you understand.

I will now go back to learning for Tuesday before this gets out of hand.

And remember, YOU ARE ALL LOVED! 💖💖

Hugs,

~Niobey