Addicted To The Feeling

Part 45

-Y/N-

"Hey, where is Colby?" I asked Sam as i rubbed my eyes

"Actually, i dont know. Last time i saw him was last night. He was here with Corey and he left" he said as i nodded

"Mmhm.. I'll go talk to Corey and see if he knows where he went" i said as i walked towards his room

I knocked and waited for an answer. He opened the door and i could tell he just woke up

"Sorry to wake you. But have you seen Colby? I thought he came home yesterday but he didn't"

"No. But we were talking in the living room but he left. He didn't tell me where he went"

I nodded and left to my room. I tried calling him again but he didn't answer. I just took the hint that his phone probably died.

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2 hours later, i heard "front door open" so i got up from the couch and ran to the front of the house. And there he was, standing at the door.

"Are you okay? Why didn't you come home?" I asked him as i gave him a hug

"Sorry..." is all he said

He lets go of the hug and goes upstairs. I didn't wanna bother him so i didn't go after him.

-Colby-

I let go of the hug and go upstairs to my room. I locked the door to my room and just laid on my bed looking at the ceiling.
That joint i took felt amazing. I started laughing cause i missed it. I missed the feeling of it, i missed feeling empty. I missed everything. I had one in my pocket so i went to go hide it in one of my duffle bags i have in my closet. I took some clothes out and went to go take a shower. I connected my phone to my speaker and hit shuffle on Lil Peep on Apple Music.
'Hellboy' started playing. I sang along to the song as i was showering. All the memories of me being so depressed came into my mind.

As i finished showering, i dried up and put some clothes on. I went to lay on my bed and put the volume down on my speaker. I was just scrolling on IG. I clicked on a few posts of me that i was being tagged in by fans. And i was reading the caption and it said 'Colby should do another photoshoot!!' And i read through the other comments. Some of the comments wanted me to do another photo shoot and some were negative comments about me smoking and being a jerk. I ended up being on a fan page that only talked bad about me, and every comment i read, my heart would just sink... i exit off the app and texted a friend of mine to do a photoshoot with him tomorrow and he agreed.
     I left my room and went downstairs to see everyone outside by the pool. I saw Y/N in the trampoline with Tara. And i saw the boys at the mini bar we have out here in the backyard. I sat down next to Sam and Corey gave me a white claw and i thanked him. I opened it and took a huge gulp of it.

"Agh, this tastes so good" i said as i took another sip

"Yeah, they're new flavors" Sam said as i nodded

"Any plans tomorrow?" Corey asked us all

"Im going on a date with Kat tomorrow" Sam said as we all nodded

"Ima have a photoshoot tomorrow. Haven't had one in a while and i low key miss it." I said as they nodded

"Ayyyee! Colby the model!! Better give me a picture of you so i can hang it in my room" Corey said as we all laughed.
 

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UGH IM SORRY I HAVENT POSTED! IVE BEEN SO BUSY SORRY!! I had to restart this chapter 3 times because i just didnt like it. BUT NOW ITS FINISHED!