What Is It You Truly Desire?

A Wingman or Two

"Remus..." I started, voice breaking slightly. His eyes widened and I realised that was the first time I hadn't called him Professor Lupin. I shook it off and continued.
"The mirror..."I continued.
"That Harry, is the mirror of Erised it shows..."
"What you truly desire I know. I well, I found it back in my first year. I used to sit in front of it and watch my parents." I admitted solemnly.
" It must have been confronting seeing your parents so suddenly?"
"Um, see that is the thing...I didn't see them there today..." I tried to explain, looking down a sudden feeling of guilt washing over me.
"Harry, what did you see? Whatever it is it will be okay."
"Why do you think it changed? Why don't I desire my parents anymore?" I asked trying to avoid the question.
"I don't think it's that you don't desire them. There is just something right now in this moment that you want more. Your need for a parental figure may have been met since first year."
"You and Sirius." I whispered. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him smile, but he pretended not to hear me.
I sat there in silence for a minute, debating whether I told him what I saw. He taught these students, he would understand them better than I do. He taught Dra-Malfoy.
"Ugh, Okay, I saw...I saw me but I was I was holding hands with someone and I was um, wearing Slytherin Robes..." Remus' face was etched with shock for a moment before he composed himself.
"Well that's okay Harry. Is this person you were holding hands with in Slytherin by any chance?"
"...Yes." I couldn't help but notice the tiny smirk.
"Is it a he by any chance?" I didn't need to answer, the blush spreading on my cheeks was answer enough.
"Draco Malfoy is a fine choice Harry. He is merely a misunderstood boy who was unfortunately raised by monsters." He announced proudly.
"How did you...?"
"I was your teacher in 3rd Year Harry, I saw the way the two of you looked at each other. Not to mention I have an amazing gaydar."
I couldn't help but chuckle at his bold statement. My smile faded and face paled however as soon as I heard a bang right outside the door and a swearword as two red heads fell through the now open doorway.
"Ah hi Harry just wanted to see how you were doing..." George announced, the two boys faces as red as their hair.

I looked up, horrified.
"Wh-what did you hear?" Tears were forming in my eyes once again.
"No no Harry, don't cry." The boys who i saw as older brothers I never had rushed up and hugged me, practically shoving Remus out of the way.

"We won't tell anyone or say anything. Promise." Fred whispered.
"Yeah, we're happy for you mate!" George exclaimed. I could see Remus smiling over Fred's shoulder and I couldn't help but release a small smile onto my own face.

The three of us sat there chatting for a while, whilst Remus went downstairs to check on Sirius and the others. It felt nice to let out all of my thoughts and feelings about the situation. Fred and George both admitted that they too could have been placed in Slytherin. At first I was shocked but then the more I contemplated the ... reasoning ... behind a lot of their pranks the hats choice began to make more sense.
"Yeah, the sorting hat said we were both cunning and ambitious but we asked the hat to just let us remain in Gryffindor with our family." George told me.

The twins told me that they'd always be here for me no matter what and reminded me that I didn't need to tell anyone else if I didn't want to. That simply accepting my desires for what they were was enough, as long as I was happy.
The twins eventually left, realising it would be suspicious if they were gone for too long and so I was left to my thoughts. I laid back on the bed and stared at the ceiling.
What am I going to do? It's not like I can tell Malfoy I think I like him. He hates my guts. He's supposed to be one of my enemies. He's on Voldemort's side. Now that Voldemort is back there's no way...even if he did maybe like me back...he couldn't, he wouldn't....would he?

No. He's on the dark side. There's no way Malfoy would choose me over his perfect pure-blood family. He lives in a mansion for Merlin's sake. He would surely be disowned immediately if he was found fraternising with the enemy.
As for myself. I can only imagine the field day the daily prophet would have if I started dating Draco Malfoy of all people.

It was settled. I would ignore these feelings and maybe, hopefully, eventually they would go away. I had bigger things to worry about then my love life anyway.

The rest of the Christmas break was spent with my "family", in every sense of the word. Every now and then I would receive worried glances from the twins however they had kept true to their word and not said anything to anyone.

Remus came in and checked on me occasionally. He still hadn't told Sirius anything which I was thankful for. It wasn't that I didn't trust Sirius because I did, but ... he doesn't like Draco's parents. I don't want to lose the relationship with Sirius over some pathetic little crush.

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