You are my forever boy {L.S fanfic}

Chapter thirty {Harrys POV}

Today is Jay's funeral.. Louis had to go to the hospital a couple of times this week so sort it all out. It is going to be a closed casket. Jay didn't wanted to be remembered sick.. and dead.. so we decided to leave her in everybody's memory as the beautiful healthy woman's she was. Lou has been holding up surprisingly well. I can sometimes feel and hear him sob at night.. but thats it. Louis is strong... and he is doing what his Jay wanted for us... to be happy.

'Harry.... your suit is hanging on the door.. I'll put mine on in a minute..' Louis just got out of the shower and is drying himself of in the bathroom.
I get my suit and start changing into it. I love wearing suits... just not for this occasion... everything is black.. why are funerals always black? Why not in the favourite colour of the person the funeral is for?.... anyway. When I'm changed I do my hair. I walk back into our room and I see Louis struggling with his tie.

'Come here baby.. let me help'
'Thanks.. I've always sucked at this... mum usually helped me but.. yea'
'I know... its all going to be fine okay?'
'Yea..'

Louis phone rings and he picks up

'Hello?'
'Oh okay. We will be right outside'

'Our ride is here'
'Come on..' I take his had and we get in.

The funeral is small. Only the boys and they're families. Louis doesn't really have family besides his dad; which he did not invite.
When we get into the building it feels strange.. its a hall with at the end a shining black coffin. Closed. We walk over and put our flowers on top. Roses. Jay always loved roses. There is also a piano. It's just al so.... so sad and somehow dark.. it feels wrong. It's because it is. Johannah was supposed to have a whole life in front of her...
within half an hour all three boys and there family's show up and the ceremony begins... it's very basic.. just like any other funeral... tho, Jay was nothing like basic.

We all say a few words. I'm struggling saying them.. I told her things... whenever I close my eyes and turn my head to the sky.. I still talk to her. I'm just having a hard time saying them when everybody is here.. so instead of a long talk, I wrote a letter.. I put it with the flowers.
When everybody said what they wanted to Louis stands up.

'I ehm.. I havent got a speech... I wrote my mom a song... because she loved music... loved piano.... its called "two of us"

Louis gets behind the piano and places his hands on the keys. It's dead silent until he starts singing.

'It's been a minute since I called you
Just to hear the answer phone
Yeah, I know that you won't get this
But I'll leave a message so I'm not alone
This morning I woke up still dreaming
With memories playing through my head
You'll never know how much I miss you
The day that they took you
I wish it was me instead
But you once told me "Don't give up
You can do it day by day"
And diamonds, they don't turn to dust or fade away
So I will keep you, day and night
Here until the day I die
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I will be the best of me
Always keep you next to me
I'll be living one life for the two of us
Even when I'm on my own
I know I won't be alone
Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favourite song
I know you'll be looking down
Swear I'm gonna make you proud
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I could feel your blood run through me
You're written in my DNA
Looking back in every mirror
I know you'll be waiting
I'll see you again
But you once told me "Don't give up
You can do it day by day"
And diamonds, they don't turn to dust or fade away (Fade away)
So I will keep you, day and night
Here until the day I die
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I will be the best of me
Always keep you next to me
I'll be living one life for the two of us
Even when I'm on my own
I know I won't be alone
Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favourite song
I know you'll be looking down
Swear I'm gonna make you proud
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I promised you I'd do this
So all of this is all for you
Oh, I swear to God, you're living
Through everything I'll ever do
So I will keep you, day and night
Here until the day I die
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I will be the best of me
Always keep you next to me
I'll be living one life for the two of us
Even when I'm on my own
I know I won't be alone
Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favourite song
I know you'll be looking down
Swear I'm gonna make you proud
I'll be living one life for the two of us
One life for the two of us
(Ohh, Ohh, Ohh)
I'll be living one life for the two of us
We'll end just like we started
Just you and me and no one else
I will hold you where my heart is
One life for the two of us'

Wow... I didn't know Lou wrote this.. its beautiful.... I feel tears falling down my face.

'Thank you Niall for helping me write the music... all the support of you all is really helping me... and Thank you Harry.. for being by my side..'

He gives us a quick smile and sits back in the chair next to me.

'That was beautiful Lou... she is proud of you.. so proud'

A tear rolls over Louis cheeck and I press a kiss to his forehead.

Everybody walks to the coffin to lay downs flowers. Then we go outside.. to the graveyard. There is a big hole in the ground and the coffin is placed on top of it. They push a button and it slowly gets lowered. When its all the way down we all get a shovel and trow some of the dirt on top of it.
We say are final goodbyes and go back inside for tea.. after an hour we all decide to go home.

'How are you feeling?'
'I don't know... it feels strange.. final.. you know?'
'Are you hungry? Shall I cook you some dinner?'
'No thanks.. I'm just going to go shower and go to bed..'
'Me too then'

We shower the day of and cuddle up in bed. It over... I can't believe it's really over....

{so here is chapter thirty.. sorry for not uploading again yesterday... I really had a lot of homework to do.... please vote and leave a comment..:D

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A xx