Be My Outlaw || Andley

Twelve

*Ashley's POV*

I sighed as I turned over for the billionth time tonight. I know I shouldn't be thinking so negatively, but I can't help it. Usually I'm so confident and cocky, but this time it's different. I'm not just screwing someone this time. This time, my heart is on the line, and I'm terrified. I've never been in love. Sure, I've had relationships, but they were never serious. I'm in love. I'm risking my heart and my happiness being with him, and I hope to god I don't get it thrown back in my face. I don't think Andy would ever purposely hurt me, but you never know. I groaned as I pushed my face further into my pillow. I started to feel cold, so I got up and walked to my closet. I looked through it, trying to find a sweatshirt to wear to bed, when something caught my eye. It was a sweatshirt I had borrowed from Andy while ago. I planned on giving it back, but it smelled like him, and I would wear it every once in a while when I got upset. I pulled it off the hanger and slipped it over my head. It still smelled like him. I laid back down and pulled it up to my nose. As weird as it seems, wearing his sweatshirt helped me to fall asleep. Within 10 minutes, I was out.

*MORNING*

I woke up to the sound of someone beating on my door.

"Wake the hell up Purdy! I know you're in there! Open the door or I'll punch your teeth in!" A woman's voice called from outside. I sighed. That'd be my wonderful neighbor. I threw on a pair of shorts and pushed my hair off my face. She kept pounding on the door.

"Jesus Christ it's fucking 7 o'clock! What do you want?" I yelled ripping the door open. Killer ran in, barking like crazy.

"Your little mutt got loose last night. Figured I should wait till morning to bring the damn thing to you." She gave me a nasty look. I mumbled 'thanks' before shutting the door. How did I not notice my little puppy missing? I guess I was a little distracted, but I'm glad I got him back. I flopped backward onto the couch, sighing loudly as I landed. I miss Andy. I should go see go him, or find out when he can come home. As much as I feel like he doesn't love me, all I want is to be with him right now. But... what if he doesn't want that? I'm probably annoying him, not leaving his house and being so clingy and irritating. I should go see him at least, make sure he's okay. By the time I ate and showered, it was 1 o'clock. It'll be about 1:30 without traffic, 2:30 the latest.

When I got to the hospital, I went to the lady at the front desk.

"I'm here to visit my friend." She looked up at me, a very bored expression on her face.

"Name?"

"Andrew Biersack." She sighed, this name in. She squinted at the screen.

"He was released this morning." What?

"Oh. Uh I guess they forgot to tell me. Thanks." I turned and walked away. My head hung as I walked to my car. He didn't want me to know he was out. I checked my phone to see if maybe I missed any calls or texts, but nothing. Instead of going home, I drove to a small park near my house. There's a few trails in the woods, and about a mile off one of them, there's a hidden pond. I go there sometimes to clear my head or be alone. I sat down and stared over the still blue water. Why didn't anyone tell me? Maybe they didn't tell anyone yet. I texted Jake to see if he knew.

Andy got released today?

Yea. You didn't know?

No...

So it was just me. Groaning in frustration and disappointment, I threw my phone aside. Maybe he really doesn't love me. It doesn't surprise me. I thought as I stared down at my reflection. I used to think I was the hottest thing around, but since I fell in love with Andy, my cockiness has faded. I'm no longer good enough. He never loved me. He never had any type of feeling for me. How could he? How could anyone? I was just some stupid experiment to see if he liked me or not.

I felt a tear slip, but I didn't wipe it away. I watched as it fell from my eye and into the pond, causing ripples to appear. One by one the tears fell from my face, making my reflection disappear. I brought my knees to my chest and rolled onto side. I laid there for a while, crying silently by myself. I looked up at the sky once I'd calmed down. The sun was disappearing behind the clouds, the sky turning beautiful shades of orange and pink. It was gorgeous. Only one thing could've made it perfect, Andy by my side.

I felt myself drifting off. I no longer cared that I was in the middle of nowhere, it's not like anyone would notice I'm not home, no one would care if they realized I'm gone. And so that's how I fell asleep. In the middle of nowhere, alone, with the thought that no one would care drilled into my head.

*Andy's POV*

It's 7 o'clock, and at the moment CC, Jinxx, Jake, and Juliet are all at my house. I got out of the hospital this morning at around 9. My mom thought I'd like it if the guys came over for a little 'party.'

"Mom!" I called from the couch. "Where's Ash?"

"Oh. He... he said he couldn't make it, had something else to do." I felt my heart crack a little. My boyfriend was too busy to come see me? I plastered a fake smile on my face, pretending it didn't hurt.

"Oh. Ok." Right after she walked away, Jake came over to me.

"You talk to Ash today?" I shook my head.

"I haven't talked to anyone. I can't use my phone until my concussion goes away." He nodded.

"Well did your mom tell him you got out of the hospital then?"

"Yea. He told her he couldn't make it because he's too busy." Jake gave me a funny look.

"He just texted me asking if you got out today. He said nobody told him." I furrowed my eyebrows. My mom didn't invite him? Did she forget? I told Jake to call him, but he didn't answer. He tried again, then again, then again. Now I was starting to get worried. He wasn't answering calls or texts, so CC offered to go to his house.

"Why didn't you call him? You didn't invite him and you lied to me about it." The smile fell from her face.

"I-I did. He... He must be lying! I called on my way to get you. I-"

"He texted Jake to ask whether or not I got out today mom. He said no one told him. Don't lie to me. Don't try to make him look bad." I yelled at her. "Are you trying to break us up?" She didn't say anything, she just looked angry. "Get out."

"Excuse m-"

"No! I said get out! If you accept that I love him, you can leave."