forgotten love -Nicholas Chavez

35.

There is a fire inside of my bed
Made of coals that I deeply regret
Oh, you left me burning with the embers
And I barely made it out alive
Oh, whatever you do
Don't come back for me
After all, I've bled for you
I can hardly breathe
Oh, you're back inside my dreams
Broken bones and empty screams
Sleepless nights in burning sheets

Robin.

In the middle of me sleeping I wake up with my heart racing thinking that I was in Ryan's house, but realized it wasn't his when I saw the picture frame of...Nicholas?

I was at Nicholas' house? I was so confused to why I was here, but then it all hit me. He brought me here, this is his parents house. My memory wasn't the strongest, but since I stopped taking those pills Ryan tried to force me to take I've been able to remember things that have happened the day before. My neurologist would be concerned when I'd come in and he would give me tests and I couldn't remember anything.

My phone lights up and notifies me that it's been fully charged and I see the missed calls and messages all from Ryan. Listening to voicemails, I was in so much fear. One really stood out to me.

"I swear to you! I hope you know you did this. It's your fucking fault! I should kill you and that fetus! Then I'll kill Nicholas and the rest of his fucking family!" The line goes dead and I realized that Nicholas wasn't in the room with me.

I nearly jump out of my skin when the door flys open revealing a beat up Nicholas with a shotgun in his possession and blood in his hands. I gasped my heart racing scared of the scene in front of me.

He drops to his knees looking so tired with his messy hair over his eyes. I slowly walk over to him and kick the gun to the side as he lets go of it.

"What did you do?" I say softly.

"I did what I had to..." he says and I look at him with my eyebrows furrowed. "I pulled the trigger."

Those four last words left me with a blank face. As I had a hard time processing his words he winced in pain as he touches his rib. He pulls his hand out and pool of blood comes onto his hand.

"Fuck! Nicholas!" I screamed. "Did you shoot yourself?"

He falls to his side and I pull him back up to sit up.

"N-No, he-he shot me back. He's gone now...don't worry about him anymore." He gently touches my cheek with his bloody hand and gives me a faint smile before lay on his back on the floor and my eyes go wide. He killed Ryan.

"Nicholas you didn't..." I say as I move his messy hair from his eyes. "Nicky!"

He was unresponsive and my heart was beating so fast.

"Karen! Manny, Karen!" I screamed, hyperventilating. I reach for my phone and dial the police just when Nicholas' parents run inside and Karen screams out in shock.

As I was yelling at the police, Manny breaks through the bathroom to find bandages as I was putting pressure onto his wound so he wouldn't bleed out. They were so worried about Nicholas that they didn't even care to ask why the gun was lying on the floor with blood on it.

I held Nicholas in my arms, bleeding out past the weak pressure I was applying and I began to sob as Karen was trying to stabilize his wound. I continue to kiss him on his forehead and cheek as I felt his soul start to physically slip away from me slowly. "Nicky focus...look at me Nicholas!" I say scared as a caress his face with one hand.