Rhythm to My Chaos

Chapter 32

#NewClassicRTMC

Chapter 32
Kiss

Jealousy was gradually eating the kindness and patience I have left in me. It was like a quicksand which was slowly trying to swallow me whole. I was having a hard time getting out of it on my own.

Every time I would see Ike, even if he wasn't doing anything, I would easily get really irritated at him. I would even try to push him away.

It was truly getting the best of me. I couldn't think rationally. It would even get worse whenever I would see Cassidey approaching him. She was always trying to get her attention.

I knew it couldn't be helped. She's a fan. She really likes New Classic, and Ike can be very approachable to his fans. However, I didn't like it. I was frustrated that I was getting possessive of him. I didn't want to be selfish but that was the kind of person I was turning into.

Gian blinked up to me when I entered his office without informing him that I'd be coming. It was like he was expecting someone else that his shoulders fell after he saw me.

He cleared his throat and acted like nothing happened as he continued working. "Is there anything wrong?" he casually asked.

Pabagsak akong umupo sa sofa. "Hanggang kailan ulit si Cassidey rito?"

Bahagya siyang natigilan ngunit ipinagpatuloy rin agad ang ginagawa. "I can't remember."

Napakunot ang aking noo. "Kailan nga?"

He sighed and put his pen down to look at me properly. "Her check out date is tomorrow. Three days and two nights lang siya nakabook dito."

"Akala ko ba hindi mo alam?"

"I just don't want to talk about her," he reasoned out. "Bakit? Is she bothering you?"

Kinagat ko ang aking labi at saka umiling. Napataas siya ng kilay sa akin.

"Is this about Ike?" sunod na tanong ni Gian.

I sat up straight and stared at my best friend. "Lagi siyang lapit nang lapit kay Ike." Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili na ilabas ang nagpapabagabag sa aking damdamin. "I mean, naiintindihan ko namang fan siya. But I know Ike. Knowing his personality, he just can't say no to his fans. He can't shoo them away, especially Cassidey because she's our friend."

"Lapit siya nang lapit..." pag-uulit ni Gian na parang hindi na niya naintindihan pa ang mga sunod na salitang aking binitiwan.

I cocked my head on one side as I watched him sunk into thoughtful silence.

I was relieved to know that Cassidey would be checking out tomorrow. I tried to comfort myself with that thought. I should also be thankful to her because she didn't post anything on social media about Ike. Kung ginawa niya 'yon ay alam kong dadagsa ang tao rito sa resort. Ike would have no choice but to leave because of that.

"Will you be singing at the restaurant later?" he suddenly asked me when he lifted his face which pulled me out from my thoughts.

"Uhm, oo..." nag-aalangan kong sagot.

Hindi ko na dinadalasan ang pagkanta ko sa restaurant dahil baka biglang dumagsa ang tao. I finally learned not to underestimate myself. Naisip ko na talagang kilala na ako. Kaya kung gusto kong tuluyang umalis sa mundo na aking tinalikuran, kailangan kong iwasan ang pagharap sa mga tao na humahanga sa akin.

However, since I already tried to deprive myself before from performing at once, I realized that it wouldn't work that way. Kaya naman napagdesisyunan kong unti-unti ang aking pagtigil para hindi ako mahirapan.