random thoughts ; series one

thoughts

thoughts...thoughts. what should i write? i can't think of anything right now – but i do know that i'm feeling very lonely.

i thought i was okay because everything is under control but that was up to my own imagination.

i circulated between the thoughts of positivity and negativity. i was in a thought of "everything's gonna be okay" to "i'm not okay".

everytime someone asks me if i'm okay, i say maybe, because i'm not really sure. until now i'm really questioning myself if i was okay or not, but i couldn't find the answer.

the happiness i'm looking as for me to be okay, it isn't there. the sadness that i've been longing because i needed it, it was there but it wasn't moving. i was emotionless.

i neither felt happy or sad. i don't know if i'm just pretending or i was too dumb to notice everything.

i'm so tired of waiting. i really am. yep.

a/n : just a short update, this is getting to nowhere lol. but yep i wanna flex this fave markhyuck picture yes big uwus <3