The Rebellion Within

Chapter 11: Family Reunion

"Asami you whore!" Opal screamed and Asami bursted into laughter, while Jinora swatted her on the shoulder.

"Opal!" The younger nurse rolled her eyes and looked over at Asami, who was wiping a tear of laugher off the corner of her eye. "I knew you had feelings for her!"

"I don't." The heiress said and sighed. "If I admit it it'll be true and it'll make everything more confusing."

"Mako kissed you and you said that it didn't make you feel the same way Korra did...and she didn't even touch your lips." Opal giggled. "So...what's confusing about that?" Asami bit the inside of her cheek and heard Jinora sighed next to her.

"It's because she's a woman, isn't she? Does it bother you that she has feelings for you?"

"It's not like that." Asami rubbed her forehead in frustration. "I don't mind if she does. I don't mind her...lifestyle? Her likings? I just don't know if that 'forbidden' lifestyle is for me. I never even thought of finding a woman so..inviting."

"Then why don't you accept the invitation?" Jinora spoke and got up to fix her uniform.

"Because as much as I'm denying whatever it is I feel for Korra, I can't deny that I have certain feelings for Mako too." Jinora made a disgusted noise that made both Asami and Opal laugh.

"Don't get me wrong, he seems like a great guy." She spoke and turned to face the older nurses. "But why settle?"

"I'm not settling..." Opal made a sarcastic approving sound at her words and Asami rolled her eyes. "I really am not. Mako is great, from a good family, and has a future planned out that's similar to mine."

"That sounds like Hiroshi talking to me." Green eyes stared at her worrying. "Is the Korra situation getting you to think like him?" Asami stayed silent and frowned. Maybe she was?

"Listen, I love the Korrasami idea to the bone...but maybe Asami has a small point." The heiress raised her eyebrow at her.

"Korrasami?" She asked.

"Yes! I merged your names together! Isn't it cute? Might call it 'shipping' or so." Jinora hummed at her own idea and shook her head again. "From what you've told us, Korra doesn't have a definite future planned since she seems a bit pessimistic and imaginative. You want something like concrete...something to look forward to so you can say for certain you can leave this place and not end up six feet underground. Korra well...I don't think she needs that...she doesn't seem to fear dying here. That gives her freedom to just imagine what to do with her life without the fear you seem to have. Which is okay Asami...we all fear it." The engineer was left speechless once more by the younger woman's wisdom and she sighed.

Was Korra really that far gone that she didn't seem to fear dying? The more she thought about it, the more it made sense. In fact, Korra seemed to only make her hypothesis true in the first conversation they had. Her words still lingered her mind.

"It's not about being condemned or saved, nor about expectations...it's about enjoying what you're certain of and to earn the prize of your sacrifices. That's what has been getting me through this war, that's what should move you too...Nothing is permanent...except for our experiences and happiness...except for our love for nature's gifts. Don't you think we should focus on that?"

The thing is that, Asami knew these words were still true; but she didn't have the courage to apply them to herself. Asami Sotomayor always had a plan, she never improvised. It gave her a sense of security to always know what was next, which is why she liked Mako so much. With Mako she could imagine what her life would look like, where she would work and what she would work on. With Korra it was simply an empty space, but not the bad kind. It was the sort of emptiness that was eager to be filled, that invited her to fulfill. So, if the answer seemed so obvious. Why couldn't she take it? Why couldn't she just go to Mako?