Fix You

twenty-eight

(Logan's POV)

I missed him. I missed him more and more every second. It was like losing Liam all over again. And it was unbearable. The thoughts came more often than not, just one little cut, maybe a few more. I just wanted to release all of the sadness that built up.

"Why hasn't he called?" I asked Calum as we sat on the couch. I just stared at my phone for hours. "It's Thursday. He's supposed to call today." I told him. "He's gonna call Logan." Calum told me. He continued to watch whatever was on the tv. After he confessed what ever feelings he had for me, he's acted weird because I totally shut him down. I didn't know what else to do. I was Luke's. And that wasn't going to change.

Calum's phone began to ring. And I jumped. "It's mine love." Calum told her. "God fucking damn it! " I screamed punching a pillow. "Calm down, he's gonna call. I'm gonna take this in the other room." He said answering his phone and walking off. I could hear a muttered conversation, but nothing worth repeating.

After awhile Calum came and sat back down. "What was that?" I asked him. "Amber." He said simply. I didn't ask anything else. I knew it was a sticky subject. Calum and I sat in silence for awhile until I started drifting off to sleep.

When I woke up it was 11:30 and no one was home, plus I didn't have any missed calls. Luke forgot about me and Calum left. Awesome. I picked my phone off the table and threw it across the room. Fuck, I knew a meltdown was on its way. He forgot about me. I couldn't believe it.

I began sobbing on the floor and Calum, Bailey, Michael, Cristen and Ashton walked in. Calum came to my side and held me. "He didn't call. All I'm going is sitting here missing him, and he couldn't even call me." I bawled into Calum's chest. "Logan, honey it'll be okay. We've all come up with an idea.. But you can think that we're trying to rid ourselves of you because that's the opposite of what we're asking." Calum said looking to everyone in the room. "Babe, what if, you checked yourself into the center. That way you could be with Luke and we'd know your safe. We are all worried about you Logan and the last thing we want is for you to do something stupid. We all love you and we all care." Bailey said, helping me off the ground and looking me in the eye.

"I can do that?" I asked. I'd never even thought of it. Being in the hospital with Luke. And I get why they were scared. I had thoughts. They came more and more often now. "Yes, if that's what you what. We would all come visit you guys, send letters, and call every chance we could. It might be good do you Logie. We just don't want to see you get bad again. We need you here." Michael told me, and pulled me into a hug.

"I want to go. I want to be with him." I told them. They all nodded and Cristen's eyes filled with tears, and she walked out of the apartment. "Who's going to take care of this place when I'm gone?" I asked, to no one in particular. "We'll all help. You and Luke will need a place to come back too." Ashton said smiling. "Okay. Can I check in tomorrow?" I asked, anxious now to see Luke, it's been a week and I missed him more than anything, except Liam. "We'll take you tomorrow." Calum said.

They all left shortly after, and for being someone who was checking in to a mental health facility, I was in oddly high spirits. But only because I was going to be able to see my happiness. I was going to get to be with my Luke.