My Heavy Burden

𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓝𝓲𝓷𝓮

After we get in the Cabin. we grabbed out our tasers, I also grabbed out my actual gun and put it in my front pocket. Instead of my back pocket easier access. We use the hand signals we've been taught since kindergarten, to communicate silently. as we look for our sister Sally. Something inside me says something bad's going to happen and that it's not going to be easy. I'm scared for both mine and my brother's safety. I'm also scared for her other three siblings as I technically have gone Rogue.But I can't think like that not right now. I need to keep my head down and in the game, especially if I want Sebastian and myself to live. As We turn the corner I see Sally standing there,she's holding her gun I quickly poll Sebastian behind me slightly, as I say.

"Put the Gun Down Sally. We both know you don't want to shoot Sebastian or myself. We both know Mom and Dad wouldn't forgive you for that. So Put the gun down, and come back with us. If someone is forcing you to do this we can protect you and you know this, so please come home."

"The agency is not my home. They stole my innocence, they stole my home.They have done the same fucking thing to you and Sebastian and you don't even fucking see it. Do you?"

"You don't think I know that you don't think I see it every bloody day. Do you honestly think I'm that blind? When Jade was brought into the agency at the same time I was, I was angry. Scared even, I knew at that point none of my siblings are safe and I'd probably lose all of you at some point. So I decided to do anything I could to protect you all, but what you're doing is just endangering us all. Please I'm practically begging here, come back with us. If you must, retire but please don't make me have to choose at some point to kill you or be killed myself, please."

"If you're so worried about the fact you may have to kill me, change sides and come with me. Be free and help me bring down the agency The year is 2017 whan the agency was supposed to fall back in the fucking 1980s after the end of the Cold War but no every country decided to say, "you know what, screw it. we're going to keep our agents, and let's keep getting new ones too because kids don't need to be kids." And because of those choices any kids you, I or our siblings have will be agents to, and go through the same hell we've been through. And you know it too the agency needs to fall. You can either join me or die. I'm not letting you leave." Sally says. What she says breaks my heart. Because I now know I have no choice in my actions it's Sebastian and I, or her. Just then Sebastian decides to speak up and with tears in his eyes he says.

"Don't hurt Lily. she's done more than you and I can ever know and continues to try and save our sorry asses. let us go and we won't bother you again, but you're no longer our sister. Kill one of us and you'll be dead just try it and you'll see."
The look in his eyes and the tone of his voice scared me. I've never seen him like this.But I suppose after 4 going on 5 years in the agency it changes people.I know it changed me and I now know it has changed my brother, my sister and probably my other siblings. This is a fact that makes me feel sad and angry. In the corner of my eye I see Sebastian raise his taser But I can see he's not fast enough. I see Sally raise her gun and I'm not fast enough to jump in front of the bullet. She shoots Sebastian, he lands on his back. I quickly fire my own taser with enough volts to knock her out but hopefully not enough to kill. She deserves to face her punishment, Back at the agency whatever that may be.

"Sebastian, can you hear me?" I ask.

He says Weekly " yes but can you please hold me. I already feel tired, I guess I well finally have some peace huh sis."
I quickly take a look at his wound and know that he's right. She fucking used buckshot and there's no way for me to treat it. Not to mention I didn't bring a fucking medkit.

I quickly asked my brother "do you want me to make it quick."

Because with the shape he's in he's got maybe three minutes. He's bleeding out but not too fast, even with me placing pressure against the wounds he doesn't have long, and we both know it.

He responds "No Please just hold me."
His already weak voice is even weaker. I decided I should sing him a lullaby since he's so tired. I remember his first week at the agency. He snuck into my room and Cadets in training are not supposed to sneak into Lieutenant's rooms Or any ranks for that matter. Even if they are siblings. But as I said my little brother and I are just as stubborn as our Dad. So he would sneak into my room and ask me to sing him to sleep, And for some reason I always did. I would hold him in my arms much like I am now and sing him the lullaby our mom used to sing to all of us. I see the moon.

As am Start singing the lullaby I hold my brother tight darling this is the last time you'll hear the song.
"It's okay to go to sleep" I say as I start to sing.
"I see the moon, and the moon sees me
shining through the Branches of the old oak tree
Oh, let the light that shines on me
shine on the ones I love.

Over the mountains, over the sea,
back where my heart is longing to be
Oh, let the light that shines on me
shine on the ones I love.

I hear the lark, and the lark hears me
singing from the Branches of the old oak tree
Oh, let the lark that sings to me
sing to the ones I love,

Over the mountains, over the sea
back where my heart is longing to be
Oh, let the lark that sings to me
sing to the ones I love.

I see the moon, and the moon sees me
shining through the Branches of the old oak tree
Oh, let the light that shines on me
shine on the one I love."
When I finish the song, Sebastian has passed. I let a few tears fall more than I have in a long time. In fact I'm very close to full on sobbing, I have not done this ever. I don't know how much time has passed, but as I'm about to stand up I feel immense pain in my side as every muscle in my body starts to throb and ache I know what's happening. It's not long before I pass out.